_poKiNG tHe cUrrY_

FREEZING JOKE

2010-04-04T08:38:00.000-07:00

某女找尋配偶, 上網搜尋：

1.要帥
2.要有車搜尋
結果："象棋"

女不服再搜：
1.要有很多錢
2.要有漂亮的房子搜尋
結果："銀行"

女不甘，繼續輸入條件：
1.要長的酷
2.要有安全感搜尋結果："鹹蛋超人"

再試
1.要長得帥
2.要有車
3.要有很多錢
4.要有漂亮的房子
5.要長的酷
6.要有安全感搜尋
結果："在銀行裡下象棋的鹹蛋超人"

HEARTS LEOPARD PREENTS :)

2010-04-04T05:50:00.001-07:00

musings of currypoker

2010-03-14T09:01:00.001-07:00

Talking can be therapeutic, the fastest way in the healing process.
I realized I like to discuss about my life, it helps to reflect on the things that i've gone through these 19 years, and how i can improve on in the future. Hopefully, by the time i've looked back in life, i would have gained much experiences from it and mature and grow up from all these falls.

A cell sister told me the other day that she was experiencing depression probs. I realized that it was only a years back ago that I experienced this craziest and the worst periods of my life. I could vividly recall the feelings of rejection, disturbing thoughts, and loss.

the life of abnomalacy, and you feel like your mind and your thoughts doesn't belong to you. negative thoughts flood your mind everyday, you're unable to escape from this deep black hole. It's only after a while that i realized that that was called a spiritual attack, something that the devil does to stray you away from God. And whenever such things ever try to happen again, i try to block out these thoughts. I realized it's easier to distract yourself from such thoughts than to counter-attack it. Never ever entertain these thoughts, you may just let yourself fall into the trap that the devil has planned.

It was only recently that these feelings come back to me, and I'm really afraid that I'm unable to overcome the depressive spirit in me. today, i went for a radio talkshow at 100.3, which was hosted by my dad's friend, kong huai. It's a sunday night show which he hosts every week, and discusses family societal issues with guest speakers occassionally. We were invited to be guest speakers to discuss about my mom's death, which was a really good way for me to release my thoughts and feelings regarding this topic. I realized I have never ever said so much about my mom's death before, then I realized again, that's because no one asked. Everyone is so afraid that they touch the nerve(wrong) spot when they try to approach you regarding this topic, when actually, we're rather open about it. In fact, I read it somewhere that family members who have lost their loved ones recently should try to find appropriate channels to release their stress and emotions through talking it out with their friends or relatives.

haha. okay. comp low batt xia. !

~i want a soothing beatifiul voice~

STYLE ROOKIE TAVI!

2010-01-02T08:31:00.000-08:00

TAVI- the 14-year old style rookie who is the new-age satorialist, absolutely adores her down-to-earth straightforward style of writing, and her crazy, adventurous, amazing FASHION SENSE. .. i swear she's the only 14-year-old around that can pull off vintage that perfectly.:)

THUMBSUP!.. absolutely adores TAVI!!

L.O.V.E?

2010-01-02T08:19:00.000-08:00

you know the feeling when you see someone, and your heart just starts to pump very fast. You want to keep looking and ogling at the person, but you're afraid that he will realize you're staring at him.. .and all the mixed feelings of wanting to know more about himm.. so on and so forth.. anws, the feelings did last for a period of time, but will END after the short period is UP. .LOL, then you will wonder why you ever ever like that person in the first place after all. .

That's how currypoker felt today. .she looked at the birthday boy today, and wondered to herself why did she ever ever ever had a crush on the birthday boy.. .and she only realized in recent years that this is termed as infatuation, which is a short-term disease that is curable if you do not let yourself fall too deep.

She hopes that this feeling will gradually stop this year when she is unable to see her eye-candy at alll this year. .><

GOODBYE INFATUATION, HELLO LOVE <3

LEOPARD + ZEBRA PREENTS = fashion hazard?

2009-12-08T06:54:00.000-08:00

Remember her?
The girl who stole the limelight with her leopard and zebra preents, and her making a loud statement with her BOOMZ and SHINGZ.. .

Apparently she caused an uproar within the fashion community, and also stirred up a controversy that LEOPARD + ZEBRA PREENTS belong to that of the ahlian, and is doomed to be a fashion disaster. .

LIKE THIS!:

DISASTROUS! GHYFUYAFFYUIOIOJ!.
and when i decided to wear a prettaye chiffon leopard dress with black sequins, i was faced with objections from friend R and J.

R: ehhh. not very safe to wear ahh.. will end up looking like RIS LOW ah.
J: safer not to wear la, people may laugh ><

hopefully the satorialist will help to do justice for animal preents that was in last year's season. :)

and a feast for the eyes:

OOHLALA_BOOMZ:)

Credits: the satorialist
http://madmoiselle.onsugar.com/431622

~BELLA SERA~

2009-12-08T06:12:00.000-08:00

Bella sera <3--the night to remember

LOVE!

2009-01-18T06:11:00.000-08:00

I 'm rather disturbed and upset by some things happened recently, and i'd rather affected by it. So, when i went for service today, I went with a heavy heart. ah, but then yuanting finally came!.haha, and that helped to lighten my mood.

the sermon today ministered to me a lott. . i could sense God's presence much stronger than usual today, and i knew that he was using Ps Mevlyn Mak's to speak to me.

SO here goes a summary of my sermon notes,:

How To Live The Most Excellent Life / 1 corinthians 13 / Rev Mevlyn Mak

The way of love is never easy. Faith, hope, and love, the greatest of all is Love. We need faith to trust in God. We need hope to find hope in the lord. But GOD himself is LOVE. <3

Love is the very essence of christianity.We all are taught to love one another, and it's a simple truth, yet hard to practise it. The fruits of the spirit are LOVE, JOY, PEACE, PATIENCE, KINDNESS, GOODNESS, FAITHFULNESS, GENTLESNESS, and SELF-CONTROL. Notice that Love is placed at the first of the fruits of the spirit, thus, this showing that love is the very key of the fruit of the Holy Spirit.

AGAPE= Love. Agape, the greek word of love means the deliberate choice to act in the interest of others. Sometimes, We find it hard to act in the interest of others in the expense of our interests/feelings. We lose our temper easily at the slightest disastifaction, and the anger driven by our bad temper will cause relationships to be easily affected and broken.

SO, how can we live the Most Excellent Life ?

1) priority and pe-eminence of love--realise the scheme of satan

1 Corinthians 13:1-3 "If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing." God made it clear in scripture that even if we have the greatest sacrificial zeal, power of communication to God and man, creativity and knowledge, and have not love, it is all reduced to nothing. And at times, even though we are obedient to God's calling or simply do the right things out of oblige and still lack love, it will still remain nothing and useless. Simply because the absence of LOVE.

The devil has switched our values upside-down and inside-out, so that our values are not in conformity with God's values.

MOTHER TERESA: "We cannot do great things alone, but can only do small things in love."

2)Picture and Practice Love--remove our self-centredness

1 corinthians 13:4-7 "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

reflect//reflect//hhaaa. have you grown in love over these years?, OR has your heart become smaller?_have we fallen into the devil's trap and stopped the love from flowing out?__OR have we become so hurt and wounded by the things that's happening around us that we form a protective barrier that prevents us from loving others?

_It's not what you have done, but what you have become.

We, humans have always majored in the negatives(get even with others when they hurt us, or sometimes get silent before allowing to accumulate , get the person a piece of our mind, hurt them just like they hurt us)

LOVE is patient = great suffering

in layman terms, it means that a person to b wronged is giving 2nd chances to people who once hurt them. n

Here are the other definations for a clearer idea:

boastful = not listening to others ( we always do it subtly, always talking about our own experiences and feelings, not giving any space for others to share theirs too)

proud = arrogant (lack of respect)

easily angered = easily provoked

haha. i feel like i'm doing some paraphasing(POKES_reminds me of compre!.haha)

and just to clarifyyyy, love=always trusts= not gullible
Always trusting others doesn't necessarily means that you can be easily bullied or taken advantaged on, it just means offering a 2nd chance/opportunity to the person who has hurt you unconsciously/without knowing.

love holds no records of wrongs, we forgive others, tho most of the times we are unable to forget.

when you learn to love, you will naturally love God as a result. :D

often, when we are already wounded and hurt emotionally, we find that we are unable to love anymore. Therefore, we need the healing of our hearts, for God to do a transformation in our lives/hearts.

and the most common of it all=self centredness and self=righteousness. It becomes part of us, and all we think about is ourselves, we hold too high values of ourselves, and expect too much of others tho we are unable to meet the them ourselves.

_lord,change me from the inside out_

3) promise and power of LOVE/

Don't give up, love always perserveres and never fails.

<3 love always,

CURRYPOKER

UGH!

2009-01-10T02:35:00.000-08:00

currypoker is sick.
(sniffs+sneezes+coughs)

arghhh. She wants to continue with her new year shopping but she can't go out cuz of a mountainload of hw that she has yet to complete. She hates integration to the core cuz she's unable to solve 9 out of 10 integration qns, be it by part or substitution.. She dislikes lun wen cuz she's unable to decide which topic and qn she wants to do. She gives up on GP because she thinks she will take forever to complete it.

and and Currypoker is feeling sad and depressed because:

1) She has already left Nuffnang and she misses the nuffies a lot
2) Her grandma's maid whom has been with her for 11 years has left for Phillipines for good
3) She's unable to find suitable new year clothes, with all her failed shopping trips at buying many monochrome tops. she needs to add some color in her new year clothes.
4) She saw a hand-made pink dress that she fell in love with it the moment she set her eyes on it, but sadly, is unable to afford it.
5) She's uber unhappy with her bowling friendlies perfomance, and wants to change her bowling style.

BUT,

currypoker decides to be optimistic and looks things at a more positive outlook.

She still has things to be grateful for:

1) She has accumulated much savings in her bank acc cuz of hol work pay_which can help to aid her financially in her new year shopping
2) She received a nice farewell card from a beloved nuffie-clara.
3) She just went to a wedding in the afternoon, and is still feeling lovey dovey from all the love.
4) SCHOOL is starting.(which is not really a good thing, maybe). Currypoker can see all her seveners and lamers.

_and she is still debating if she should get stockings and leggings online @20bucks(for both). should she. or should she not?

CHENSI"S BIRTHDAY @SHOKUDO

2008-12-22T07:17:00.000-08:00

a picture speaks a thousand words:).

XD

2008-12-17T08:39:00.000-08:00

I So HEART yanne!.hahas.

this beloved lamer came out in the night to meet me, just to guide me to my seller's house to collect my UO wallet. in case i gett lost. :D

THANKS SO MUCHH!.

U DUNNOE HOW MUCH I REALLY APPRECIATE, AFTER HAVING A REALLY SUCKY DAY YTD..

PIANO LESSON WAS REALLY ><, MMM, MY TEACHERS DOUBTS MY UNDYING SINCERITY AND PASSION FOR PIANO, AND SHE JUST PUNCTUATES MY PASSION BUBBLE BY SAYING "I THINK YOU'RE NOT SERIOUS ABOUT TAKING YOUR DIPLOMAT, YOU SHOULD SERIOUSLY CONSIDER IT, YOU HAVE TO BE REALLLYYYYY COMMITED" :(.

AND THEN WORK WAS BUSY, HECTIC, CRAZY, NO-TIME-TO-BREATHE, DI-ED

LUCKYILY THERE WERE NICE ANGELS HELPING ME TACKLE ALL THE AIGIFHBJKGBJ.

THANKS GUYS: KAIZHI, HANAA, CLARA, CHERIE!

AHA, BUT THE DAY BEFORE WAS REALLY FUN. MINI LA GATHERING, WITH QIU, ANT, SOPH. I WENT ON A SHOPPING SPREE.:). BOUGHT NICE STUFF FROM SKINFOOD FOR MY SECRET SANTA, HAHA, THE FASTEST SHOPPING I'VE EVER DONE, CUZ ANTHEA HELPED ME CHOOSEEE!.xD. ELSE, I WOULD HAVE TAKEN A UBER LONG SWEET TIME.

THEN WENT TO THIS NICE VINTAGE SHOPP, AND THIS CUTE FASHION DESIGNER SHOPKEEPER KEPT SHOVING ME VINTAGE DRESSES AFTER DRESSES, AND I'M FINALLY CHOSEEEE A PINK, PEACHY VINTAGE DRESS.

SO IT'S GONNA BE VINTAGE. PRETTY. OBSOLUTELY. SIMPLE. TAPESTRY

haha. VPOST MAKES ME HAWT. :). cuz i get to get all my spree stuff from overseas, be it US, UK or japan! and my lovelly lovely boho wallet. I'm so in love with you.:D

AHA, i'd better get going on with horrible AQ!.ah.boo.GP is totally da bomb.:D.. as iF.

~nick & norah~

2008-12-03T21:50:00.000-08:00

3rd december 08

had piano in the morning, waha, and my piano teacher i had improvedd.the weird thing is i had not been practising much last week, cuz of work and stuff, and usu, when i practised reall hard, she will say otherwise.

so, sometimes hard work doesn't equate to success too.

and and i'm dying to try out sonata in a minor by schubert, the piano piece played by nodame in the jap show. It's damn longg, 9 pages..but it's really really nice.. .XDD

and i'm addicted to playing christmas songs,ahh, it gets me into the christmasy mood.XDD

yupps, my teacher is organizing a piano concert on the 14th dec, and i'll be playinggg.XDD.do support me if you're free kay?..it's at 4pm @YMS.

haha, then i went for work after piano lesson. .haha, and for once in this week, i was early, in fact i was uber early!..i was stranded outside of nuffnang office for like half an hour. luckily, raine came shortfly after that, then it was workworkwork after that~

went for lunch with the rest of nuffnang team__then ming was suggesting to us during lunch that he will produce a movie.wahhaha, it was damnn funny, trying to assign roles for us and demanded that it's free.HAHA

in the evening, some of us nuffies rushed down to the cathay,

wah, my phone bill is seriously going to burst this month, cuz i always get super many phone calls from the nuffnangers, esp for the nick and norah movie screening, where they will ask for the location, and some kiasu people who go super early when it's not even of time yet

haha, anws, nick and norah was really funny, damn cute comedy, but the language is a bit crude(cuz NC 16 mah), can you believe this, this movie is my 1st NC 16 movie.?

but actually, i expected it to be better, cuz the advertorials make it sound as if it;s the must-watch movie of the year. it's nice, but i won't say it's exceptionally great. quite cheesy actually.
nevertheless, it's still not bad, a good movie to watch with your other halff

anws, i was reading yanne's blog in the morning, i always find her posts very thought-provoking, it really made me reflect much about certain stuffs.

and i'm feeling reall fat from eating all the pigg stuff and junkfood in our office, sheesh, it's time for exercise_i need to go work out soon.!

~eventful weekend~

2008-12-01T05:57:00.000-08:00

the house feels so empty during the weekend w/o my maid(who left for philippines) and bro(who left for shanghai), dad (who left for india__which was supposedly a bad idea to go there at such bad circumstances)..

i was feeling rly bored at home cuz there was only my grandparents, another maid + sister..

luckily, there were million things to do during the weekend..

saturday____ BLOOD DONATION DRIVE @HSA

haha, i met a lot of bloggers, and it was an eye-opening experience for me, cuz it was the first time i was helping our in an event in nuffnang. IT was FUNN, got to meet up with tonnes of bloggers whom i have memorized their names over the past week due to collation of the numbers of people coming for the event, and answering emails after emails of enquiries.hehh, and then finally saw soph ling +shengkun.. ..whom was surprised that i knew them.. .and then when i told them i was from hwachong too they were like, "are u from J2?"

haaaa, that madeee my dayy!!.

haha, first time ever someone mistaken me being in J2, In my sec school days, esp during sec 4, some people mistook me being in sec 1!!!!.(feels darn insulted)

i may be short, but not that younggg kay!.

haha, anyways, the event was really well-planned, all thanks to Raine, who totally slogged really hard for the event(pats raine on the back)..and the nuffnangers reallyreally enjoyed it. Although the turn-out was really bad, only 118 people turned up~. we expected a 300-strong crowd.. .BUT i must say it was a good effort. I felt that it was a meaningful event that we had organized, and i must say that it being the first Blogger's Blood Drive, it was considered to be a successful event.!..

ha~, even though i was mostly really bored at the registration booth(cuz very few people turned up), i must say i kinda enjoyed meeting the nuffnangers, and talking to nuffies like Estee and kaizhi. .

and and i'm really looking forward to organizing more events in nuffnang.
xmas party/house-warming~!

Saturday that night, i sent off Leeqi as she was going to London to study, and everyone got really emotional, cuz we know it'll be a long tym b4 she comes back to singapore again. and she is a really really good friend of mine, since pri school days, we have grown really close, so i felt really emo and saddd. She was feeling really emotional too, and when we really had to leave her, after passing her a nice farewell book, we hugged her and bade farewell. and she cried, and i was on the verge of tearing, when tiffany tried to make the atmosphere more cheerful by wishing leeqi merry xmas, then we went really high, me and chensi started singing her random xmas songs+new year songs, and then tiffany suggested we should sing deepavali, hari raya songs, and birthday songs, cuz we are not able to celebrate all these festivals with her anymore. .

we send her off at the departure hall, being retarded by bading her goodbye and wishing her a good trip in all kinds of language, bon voyage, selamat datan, etc.

anws, i really hope she will really enjoy studying in London~.ALL THE BEST, LEEQI!

sunday:

met up with kengsan's cell to discuss MYHOPE. wah, the guys in his cell are superrr crappy can.

when we were coming up with ideas of ice-breakers to play during my hope,

the guys came up with passing the parcel and musical chairs.wahshaio!~.haha, then keng san came up with this really cool game, "don't forget the lyrics"-xmas version where you got to rmbr how to sing the christmas carols.

then, this johnboy(dunno if that's how you spell it)has this huge lump of curly hair(somewhat like dreadlocks), and his hair is covering his eyes, and it was really funny, cuz he kept sweeping his hair to his cell mates beside him when he speaks.. it as uberuber entertaining listening to them crap and talk.LOL, i kinda wonder how our xmas party will turn outt.

AND guess what, it so happens that Tricia and Hweeyanne were in expo for the crazy IT fair, so i met up with them earlier to catch up.. .and and i asked tricia if she was interested in going to church with me after she bought her stuff from the fair then she actually said yess!.i was quite surprised,cuz she didn't looked like the kind who was willing to go church..

so in the end, i managed to drag her to our youth service, and i think she was quite overwhelmed by our worship and the huge congregration we have. ..i was afraid that she would feel uncomfortable being with us there, cuz it was the first time for her to come down to church, but after the service, she said she actually felt that the sermon was inspirational and rather applicable to her life.. .

God spoke to me during the service, and i felt very prompted by the lord to go in front to the altar for prayer, as i had been stuggling very long with a persistent sin that i had not been able to let go, i felt that i could not be set free from the clutches of the devil, who constantly led me into temptation, and i felt really trapped. For once, i decided that i'm no longer going to allow myself trapped myself in bondage anymore, i want to be free of sin, holy and righteous, blameless and pure in front of God.

~the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak~//so, over and over again, we allow ourselves to succumb to the temptations of the world and the desires of our flesh..

But not anymore, i decided!

after service, i met up with yokie and we managed to catch up, went to P.S to eat dinner together with Eric and Meiling. I felt really great to meet up with change people, in fact i was happy!.i really do miss a lot of them, and it felt like old times, when yokie and Eric started crapping and singing,

actually i really enjoy talking to Yokie, cuz he always have so much interesting insights on life, esp on love relationships. etc. Cuz only both of us are christians in Change, and in the same church, so sometimes it is easier for me to relate to him, like we share the same values and stuff.

haah, and he seriously cracks me up whenever he talks about his potential love target..it was super amusingg, reminds me of fukuan during the change days.

Mon: SPH scholaship talk in the morning in swissotel was not bad, i might consider a carrer as a journalist, probably a reporter in lianhezaobao, cuz my english can never make it if i ever apply to be a straits times journalist.

and swissotel food=LOVEEEEE.. oishii ne, super duper good!

ha, then ming treat us for lunch after i went back to the nuffnang office.ate really really good beef noodles.

then in the afternoon, me, kaizhi and hana started discussing about the house-warming party +activities we were supposed to plan for the msia nuffies,

and and i'm beginning to enjoy working with all of the nuffies. i think i will really miss working with them after school starts..

CRAPOS><, i was supposed to start on math hw today, i have been neglecting my huge pile of hol hw for uber long days.

~nuffnang~

2008-11-26T01:13:00.000-08:00

ah.ooh.whee.i;m really bored at nuffnang office nowww.

haha

after viewing so many blogs to copy printscreens and reading every class blog through 08s6G bloggg.i'm officially BOREDDD!

and the funny thing is i happen to chance upon o8s6G's blog through their ct rep, shengkun.. heh, and the funniest thing is that he registered with nuffnang for our blood donation drive. .ha, with soph ling. i managed to call up soph ling a few days ago. and it was so weird, cuz i was tempted to say

currypoker: "hi, is this sophia? this is charis calling from nuffnang and hwachong institution,HIII!"

OBVIOUSLY I DIDN'T.

i just went,

currypoker: "hi, is this sophia, i'm charis calling from nuffnang, and this is regarding our Blood donation drive.... .."

AHA, and then kunkun registered with us a few days later using his class blog and email..damn cute la, i was like collating..then this blog add v. familar, so i went to take a look, and it caught my interest when i realized it was a hwa chong class blog, and they have every class blog's link, which helped me cure my boredom when i was reduced to doing nothinggg..

HAHA, and shall advertise the blood donation drive here, even though it will be not effective. cuz hardly anyone reads this ulu blogg.haha

nevertheless..

CALLING ALL NUFFNANGERS!!, DO JOIN OUR FIRST BLOGGER'S BLOOD DONATION DRIVE. :).
THERE WILL BE EXCITING ACTIVITES, GAMES, FREE MOVIE SCREENINGS REFRESHMENTS..

MORE DETAILS CAN BE FOUND ON http://www.nuffnang.com.sg/are-you-my-type/

andandand i'm really excited cuz i'm gng for a movie premiere on next mon --"NICK AND NORAH"!!!!

8th dec_sermon devotion

2008-11-08T08:09:00.000-08:00

8th nov 08
Establishing God’s economic order / genesis 11:1-9, acts 2:44-47 and 4:32-35

God’s kingdom
Let’s act in one love and one mind, as one family of Christ. (nothing will stop you when the power of God is in unity)

Genesis 11:6 “The LORD said, "If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them.” When people of the same community gather together to do God’s work, they have power, and nothing will prove to be impossible for them to achieve. When they strive towards a same goal that God has given them, nothing will prevent them from achieving it.

Acts 4:32-35 “All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of his possessions was his own, but they shared everything they had. With great power the apostles continued to testify to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus, and much grace was upon them all. There were no needy persons among them. For from time to time those who owned lands or houses sold them, brought the money from the sales and put it at the apostles' feet, and it was distributed to anyone as he had need.” This was the ideal world that God wanted to achieve, all believers of Christ in one heart and one mind, setting out to save the lost and eliminate poverty. Eradication of poverty no longer becomes a myth, because history has shown that the impossible has been achieved. In acts, one of the books in bible, it states that all Israelites have no possessions of their own, and shared everything they had. It was the ideal state, where everyone was equal, and they view their possessions as blessings from God, and thus they would share them everyone. As the analogy goes, it’s easier to give money to others when it doesn’t belong to you. Thus, by viewing your money as God’s money, it makes it easier for us to part with them to those who are in need.
God’s sterwardship (no claimed that any of his possessions was his own). Our money belongs to God. When we know that money belongs to God, it is easier to give.
God’s glory, the name of Jesus was glorified when we give ourselves all out to God, including all our possessions.

Let’s live in community(which will aid in the eradication of poverty), and repent of our greed(ask God forgiveness of our greed).

Live simply so that others may simply live!
Renounce all fears! God will provide all our needs. Give and it shall be given to you.

(you had a bad day)

2008-11-06T08:08:00.000-08:00

gahh,today was an extreme rollercoaster ride.

morning 7am: woke up feeling really excited cuz i was starting work in seab today
7.30am: ate this really nice choc fudge cake that made me felt rly sinful. still in high high happy mood:).

nothing's gonna change my mood. it's a bright sunny day with birds chirping. everything's gonna be greatttt!

8.10am: gahh, still stuck in train, late for workkkkkkk!, 1st day somemore><
8.15am: met up with sophh
8.20am: chenxi, the late queen finally appeared.walked quickly to seab cus we were really late

that's when something happened!~

suey incident #1: my slipper chose such a horrible time to split open and broke. .i was practically limping and limping until i felt that it was so difficult walking like that. i decided to take off the left broken slipper, and so i ended up walking barefoot on the left foot and slipper on the right.. it was an embarrassing sight.totally!

9am: ended up in seab after much attempts of limping and looking like a retard. .
decided it was best to go all barefoot after all, wrote this declaration form saying whether u have close relatives, friends or family taking o'levels. stupidy wrote my bro taking o'levels chinese w/o much thinking. ..

9.30am: Just when i thought all my bad luck has finally disappeared, the person-in-charge suddenly called me over.

suey incident #2:

person-in-charge: you have a brother taking o'levels this year.?

charis: yes, but he's in sec 3 this year, so he's only taking o'level chinese.

person-in-charge: huh?! cannot leh, didn't we tell you beforehand that you musnt' have any family members taking o'levels, cuz we're doing o'levels!

charis: but he's taking only olevel chinese, one paper only.

person-in-charge: cannot!, it means you will stil be able to see his entire script.

charis: but i'm doing malay and tamil scripts

person-in-charge: NO!, we cannot afford anything to happen.
person-in-charge: wad's your brother's name?
charis: *gives full name of brother*
person-in-charge: *checks brother's name on comp*

sorry, you have to leave, cuz your brother is taking o'level chinese this year
we will terminate your work registration immediately. you can leave now.

charis: (?UYGUBHBJ@!!!!!!.)

WHAT?!.

the job was like one of the highlights of hols, tho it's pretty much a boring job, you just get to collate scripts and shade tons of marks.. .but i enjoyed it, and the satisfaction gotten from a job is really good. like i earned bout 500plus just doing that job for bout 2 weeks. it's good and easy money.:D

so it was thunderstorm when i started off with such a horrible horrendous to my day. i walked out of seab, ready to go home to get a good rest from all these crap that i faced in the morning.

and then

suey incident #3: it started pouring really heavily!. and i was left stranded outside seab which was fortunately sheltered else i would have died on the spot. i was not in a state to walk back to tiongbahru station with my slidders broken and pathetic, and definately unable to walk back home like that. . .

started emoing on the seats:

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

(bad day-Daniel powter)

歌名：下雨天歌手：南拳妈妈

下雨天了怎么办我好想你
不敢打给你我找不到原因
为什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替
陪我等雨停
期待让人越来越沉溺
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不出那些差别
结局还能多明显
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉
期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不出那些差别
结局还能多明显
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉
怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不出那些差别
结局还能更明显
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

haha, these2 songs are really good for emoing, but i personally think bad day sounds more optimistic than 下雨天.. .and then i was staring into space for like 15 minutes, thinking how suey can i get.. .

almost on the bringe of tears,imagine this scene, raining pouring+feeling reallly sad and depressed like the world crashed on you+sitting on the bench cus you're handicapped with no shoes, and unable to walk to the nearest bus-stop/mrt station to go home

after 15mins of stoning and emoing, i decided to give up and just go barefoot in the rain.

i went out and took a cab. .
and i swear singapore has too little taxis out there. .

i waited,and waited, tons of cabs with "busy" on their signs passed by..
uh, it's becoming increasingly tough to get a cab in singapore, in places like america and taiwan, it's damn fast to get a cab, u just raise ur hand to hail for one, and after a few seconds, it comes.. .
hais, they should seriously re-look into the taxi, cabbing system, like increase their pay or smthing, and lower their cab rental fees for goodness sake.. .

but the best thing was that the whole ride only took me 6plus bucks..not bad sehh, and i tot that it'll cost more than 10bucks, wad with the increase in taxi fares and oil prices.

sucksss,prices is like increasing so much for everything,.

me and sophh just went to check jetstar air tic prices, and our 562 price tics to taiwan rose up again,ahh, my money pocket is seriously gng to bao(4)..now it's 600plus for a round-trip ticin 1st week of jan. and china airlines is 700plus..wah, during dec it's like 900plus.GOSH.........><

aHHH, anws, after going home, i was feeling rly pissed and in a super bad mood. i ticked my bro for playing comp, cus he was supposed to be banned>.<, it gets extremely difficult to discipline ur siblings esp when they don't view you as an authority figure.. .it's easier for them to get-out-of-hand when my mom is not around, then you feel it's your utmost responsibilty to ensure the well-being and growth of your bro and sis.

i was still in this rly crappy mood for the rest of the morning..

only after chrislyn sent me this really exciting sms, that she helped me found an internship in nuffnang which is 500 per month. but the job scope is rly interestin and fun, like you get to go for movie screenings for free.:D, and chislyn got a chance to meet artistes and actresses in some muay thai comps last year.. .ahh,!.

that helped to clear some of the black clouds.

i became significantly much happier for the rest of the day

i went for a swim in the evening cus i was feeling really unfit and fat lately, have't been excercising lately.

after the swim, i felt much better:D, with my body producing more endorphins.:)

a happy girl ended the day doing her cv for the internship:

ahha, below is the internship:

CHARIS YANG SHIN CHIH

Home Address: 3 Farrer rd, Blk 3 #06-02, Singapore 268818

Mobile: 90306295 Email: Joey_baby_blue@hotmail.com D.O.B: 10/06/91

Personal statement:

I’m currently a first year student studying in Hwachong institution. I have no prior working experience, but have a deep interest in advertising, and would like to learn more through this internship. I enjoy working with people and bloggers, and love to help organize large-scale exciting events. I am good in administration jobs such as typing and filing papers, and don’t mind working for long hours. I believe I have the passion and interest that will make me a suitable candidate for this internship. I see this internship as a unique learning experience, which may continue to spur my interest in the areas of advertising as well as on events management.

Education:

Hwa Chong Institution: 2008-2009

Subjects took: general paper(E), mathematics(E), china studies(B), chemistry(B), Biology(D) --LOL, i decided to use my promo results which was much better than my overalll!.w/o my promos results which helped to push up my overall grades, i'd probably unable to promote le..

Nanyang girls high school: 2003-2007
--Completed the intergrated programme

Subjects took: Language arts(A2), Higher Chinese (A2), Integrated mathematics (A1), Biology (B4), Chemistry (B3), Integrated humanities (A2), History (B3)
O’level higher Chinese: A2

Work experience:

Faith community Baptist church: Worked in service counter, attending to the needs of church members. Worked in video control room, controlling high-tech equipment during church services. Well equipped in administrative jobs: Helped in registration of church classes, simple typing jobs, setting up of computers, visualizers and sound system for lessons and presentations

Singapore examination assessment board: mostly administrative jobs such as collating examination scripts and marks. A job that requires one to be meticulous and patient.

Interests:

Sports: Enjoys a wide range of sports such as rollerblading, tennis, basketball and swimming. Currently in Hwa Chong instituion’s bowling team.

Arts:
• Singing
-an active member in Nanyang girls high choir
-a participant in a Chinese pop charity concert (change 08’) in 2008

• Dancing
-actively takes part in hip-hop lessons
-deep interest in old school hip-hop (popping and locking etc)
-prior experience in ballet (grade 2)
-member of touch dance (2003-2004)

Skills:

Computing: well versed in MS word, Powerpoint and Excel.
Piano: attained pass in Grade 8
Languages: proficient in chinese
-A bi-culutral studies (chinese) students
-Attained a excellent grade in HSK examinations
-currently pursuing china studies for A’levels next year

~sermon devo_1st nov~

2008-11-01T09:14:00.001-07:00

1st November 08’
The privilege of praying: “your kingdom come: your will be done”
1) Why do we not pray?
Luke 15:11-24 (parable of the prodigal son) Like the prodigal son in the parable that Jesus told the disciples, we often forget God’s grace after a period time, in fact, the son in parable forgotten his father’s love and grace in only a day. This is really alarming, as it shows that most of us can easily forget God’s grace and goodness after receiving his grace.
One of the reasons why prayer is not in the priority list of most Christians is that most of us tend to have a false sense of sufficiency. We take for granted God’s blessings and sense of sufficiency creeps in. We tend to believe that we can work a way out our own way, and rely on our own strength and power to overcome the difficulties and problems in life. We easily forget that all we possess and have is from him. Most of us fall into the trap of falling in love with the gifting , rather than the giver himself. Also, we allow our pride to take over us, and we want to take control of our lives.
However, more often or not, we fail whenever we try to rely on our own human ways to solve our problems. Don’t sell yourself to the world. Sometimes, pain and uncertainty is a wake-up call to God’s grace. It is only after going through failures and setbacks in lives, that we realize that we badly need the lord. He becomes the ultimate solution of all problems and difficulties, and everything becomes possible in his hands.
Another simple reason would be the lack of intimacy with God.
As we draw near to God, he will draw near to us. God is dying to draw near to each of us, however, the lack of relationships often hinders us, the children from reaching to God. God is waiting for us to take the first step, thus, this relationship between you and God can only be deepened and extended when you choose to take the 1st step in prayer.
2) How then should we pray?
Simply pray, it is the action of prayer. We can only learn prayer by praying. Follow the format of prayer in matthew 6:9-13
" 'Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
your kingdom come,
your will be done
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us today our daily bread.
Forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one. “
We have to discipline ourselves to pray to catch the heartbeat of God. Think of it this way, prayer is like a conversation of a child with his/her father. It’s only through conversing with each other and heat-to-heart talk that this relationship will continue to grow and develop. And it’s also through prayer, that we get to understand more about the lord, and his plans, vision, purpose for your life.
Prayer starts in your marketplace, plant a prayer cell in your schools, marketplace, workplaces today
The 3 Rs
Relationships (it’s all about people in your marketplace, teachers, friends, colleagues, bosses_are they facing any deep issues and problems in their lives?, pray for reconciliation and restoration of broken relationships)
Revelations (it’s hearing from God__hear for revelations and look out for visions, always remember, we are operating God’s work in his way)
Repentace (it starts with ourselves_a change of heart in ourselves is required before we can start transforming our marketplaces)

~FROM THE INSIDE OUT~

2008-10-29T08:22:00.000-07:00

(i was doing quiet time today when i was reminded by this beautiful song)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-afZJ9_TIM&feature=related

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine
when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine
when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bringYou praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

~sermon devotion_27th oct~

2008-10-27T07:05:00.001-07:00

27th oct 2008
the privilege of praying: “your kingdom come, your will be done.” Matthew 16:13-20, 2 CHRONICles 7:14-15
The kingdom of God cannot be shaken. It’s not what God has told you before that are important but it is about what God is telling you at the moment. Listen carefully to what God has to tell you. God is always saying something new, and we need to hear what God is telling us. This helps us to be always involved in the gospel of kingdom.
In this time of financial crisis, our best bet and investment is to first seek the kingdom of God, for he is never-changing, and the same yesterday, today and forever. We can find our trust and security in him. Matthew 6:33-34 “33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
Whenever, problems and difficulties strike us, let’s turn to him in prayer and make known our requests to him. Prayer is important, and it is the solution to everything, it is the basic crucial thing that brings forth the kingdom. A prayer make known to God is powerful; because it means that you’ve got the keys of the kingdom of heaven. It is a promise that God has given us that we’ve rewarded with a privilege to asks/requests God of everything that we want. However, there is a condition that is stated in the bible. 2 chronicles 7:14 states that “ if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.” Thus it means that if there is obedience and compliance to God, then God will grant us whatever we want and answer our prayers.
However, most of the time, most of us do not pray. Prayer is not high on priority, both corporately and personally. We often seek for other ways and try to solve our problems in our ways, before eventually resorting to prayer when nothing works out. Prayer becomes our last choice that we turn to when all fails.
So we ask ourselves these 2 questions
1) Why do we not pray?
2) How then should we pray?
1) Why do we not pray? Luke 15:11-24 (parable of the prodigal son) When we do not pray, we’re exactly like the prodigal son in the story. We are distracted by the worldly temptations, and this leads us away from God. We become distant from the father, and only after a period of suffering, that we realize that we need the lord, and thus decide to run back to God once again.

~UGH~

2008-07-17T07:47:00.000-07:00

idon'twant to do it again.

i really don't want

this is depressing.

hais, it was already all-so-screwed on weds>.<

can someone tell me wat to do?

daily devotioN_17th JULY~

2008-07-17T07:46:00.000-07:00

17th july 08

40 day fasting-where compassion leads

According to the Hebrew religious law, any woman with a discharge of blood is considered unclean, and any Jew in contact with her will be contaminated. But this woman in her desperation, reached out to touch Jesus despite the fact this was uncalled for in the past. However, Jesus saw her faith and he healed her illness immediately.
Jesus took no thought for his own ceremonial purity, and he always put the poor, sick and the destitute in his top priority list. He always saw the lost through his eyes of compassion, and loved them more than he loved himself. He never saw them as threats to his own holiness, and has given up his reputation and status to help them. He did not see them as threats to his own holiness, but as sons and daughters of God, bearing the divine image.
It was a radical response, one that was totally unheard of from the son of God.
Henry Nouwen (the way of the heart): “let us not underestimate how hard it is to be compassionate. Compassion is hard because it requires the inner disposition to go with others to the place where they are weak, vulnerable, lonely and broken. But this is not out spontaneous response to suffering. What we desire most is to do away with suffering by fleeing from it or finding a quick cure for it.” We always find it difficult to develop a compassionate heart for the lost, and often we do not understand why we are unable to do so. That ‘s because it is not human nature to be able to deal with pain and suffering. We do not like to see it happening, nor do we want to experience it.
And often, the truth is, compassion will always cost you something. Compassion may first grow as you observe the plight of others from a distance, such as watching the news regarding the Aceh tsunami or even the recent Sichuan earthquake disaster. As we watch these heart-breaking disasters happening around the world, we feel sorry for these victims, and sympathize with them. We may think this is compassion, but it isn’t so. The fruit of compassion, when fully formed, will always lead you out of your comfort zone, into places of suffering and brokenness. Your personal security will may be undermined, your comfort may be sacrificed. Even as you are called out by the lord to serve the poor/lost, you will not hesitate, and go with a compassionate heart to serve and be a blessing to others. You will find out that your heart may grow bigger, and you will look more and more like Christ, out servant-king.
Through these years, there are many who have been my inspiration and role models when it comes to serving the lost/ poor. One of them is my uncle who has been to Africa these past few years as a missionary. During his ministry years in Africa in Nigeria, he has brought his whole family, and it was initially a difficult decision for him as he had to give up his high-paying job and to sacrifice the comfort of his family. Moreover, his children’s education was at stake, and at that point in time, my cousins were very young, thus, it was a tough decision my uncle had to make, as he had to move out of his comfort zone to go into a foreign land that was totally unfamiliar and new to him to help the poor, and to bring the gospel to them. He was a dentist(specialist in some diseases.), and thus rendered his services to them, and I personally was very inspired and touched by their family’s efforts in serving the lord, as well their courage in serving a place so far away from Singapore for 5 years.

~birthday video!~

2008-06-15T08:09:00.000-07:00

the birthday song welson+fukuan+lego sang during my birthday.XD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GPXTN8JYgU0

~sermon devotion_15th june~

2008-06-15T08:07:00.000-07:00

15th june 08
Jesus the bread of life—the answer to world hunger / john 6:26-40 / apostle Lawrence Khong—combined service.

God is the bread of life, only he can satisfy all our hungers in life. The world needs God like never before, as the world is constantly suffering from different hungers, from experiencing physical hunger to spiritual and emotional hunger.
The only provider is God himself. Our stomachs are always not empty but our hearts are always empty and lacking something. The answer can only be found in the relationship between you and God. God has given us the bread of life-the daily bread.
John 6:35 “Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.”
1) The bread of life lasts forever—Be wise!
Make a wise and informed choice to accept the bread of life into your life. Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. When Jesus performed the miracle of 5loaves and 2 fishes, he told the people not to go for the food that spoils, but for the bread of life that will last forever. What he means here is that do not pursue things of this earth that will only grant you pleasures for a moment of time, but rather go for things that are eternal, and are trustworthy.
John 6:26-27 “Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, you are looking for me, not because you saw miraculous signs but because you ate the loaves and had your fill. Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. On him God the Father has placed his seal of approval."
Don’t miss what God has planned for your eternally, and waste your time on things that will not last. Remember to fill your life constantly with God’s grace, love and mercy. Let the miracle of God points you to God so that you will develop an eternal relationship with him, which you will base the foundation of your life upon.

John 8:12 “I am the light of the world.”

John 10:7 “I am the gate of the sheep”

John 11:14 “I am the good shepherd”

John 11:25 “I am the resurrection and the life.”

John 14:6 “I am the way and the truth and the life.”

John 15:1 “I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener.”

Jesus is the provider, he is the source of fulfillment.

change concert !

2008-06-11T11:32:00.000-07:00

i managed to dig this post out of all my drafts.. .and am too lazy to complete this post. so i'll post more pictures to compensate for this unfinished postt:)

i've been suffering from post change depression lately.. started to feel really kong xu and empty after no longer having dance pracs and rehearsals.and somehow, i kinda miss the days when we worked really hard aftter a dance prac, and even the times when cheeyang scolded us during briefings, i miss all the fittings of clothes, tho i don't quite particularly like the clothes for my songs. uh, and i heard that there was some prob with the returning of the clothes as the laundry shop forgetten to dry-wash the clothes.ohmytian!..

haha, i was really scared i would not have time to change as i totally came out late for the full run the other time, and thus just changed really quickly in abt 30 secs with the help of our dear dresser_wenshi +eve's fwens.

haha,and it was nerve-wrecking standing down there feeling realy uncomfortable with my necklace dangling at the wrongside, the downsides of changing TOO fast, and not ensuring that everything was worn properly. haha, my maid said i kept pulling my dress when i was singing yushangai.,

next, taohuayuan!,

hees, and this time i managed to do it just in time.. .me and eve stood at the backstage, waiting on standby, nan dao wo you chu lian le was the previous song b4 us, and that;s when we realized fukuan's mic wasn't working properly, then i started to panic ><,which i did during tm 's preview concert... tried to calm oneself and then went out to give my best.. .

~bowling chalet~

2008-06-11T10:38:00.000-07:00

bowliing chalet!whoots_9th-10thjune!

me and sophh arrived at coast sands resort in sentosa, after our bio remedial+mock test, which was kinda FEI(4) and redundant. wah, and i got a shock of my life when me and sophh entered into the smallest resort room with 10 over people squashed in a really tiny room with bags and rubbish littered everywhere.haha, but it was kinda cosy with everyone next to one another. we ended up stoning+talking for the rest of the few hours. and just as we were happily showing off our farewell gifts for seniors, we got another shock!, the bibs ended up stuck onto one another via fabric paint and donald's alphabets started to peel off from his mirror.. . that sends everyone into a PANIC!, we started to pu(3) all the gifts and make them look presentable. ahh, i feel really guilty for not checking that everything was okay before bringing them over to chalet,mienheyo(sorry).. .

then we went for dinner at subway, which we walked at a really snail speed cuz the guys at the back started walking really slowly, and me and sophh being in the middle, trying to bridge the gap between the 1st 2 people and the rest who were taking a stroll at the back.. .hahas, and chongchen gave us subway cookies, so it was kinda amusing bringing in subway cookies to subway to eat. .

and we continued to walk and walk, until i was getting really hungry, and we still couldn't find the place. we reached the mrt train station of sentosa, and guojun said, "hey, we reached the subway already.", and everyone just totally LENG diao.. .><

after ordering our food, me, tiffany and sophh decided to go outside, and we started singing random choir songs, somewhere out there+when you believe+close to you, and then i started to reminiscence abt choir last year, and me and tiffany started talkigna bout the past, and how we miss singing in parts and harmonizing in choir. .

we went back for elections after we ate dinner, with the seniors passing us the election voting forms, haha, and all the photos of us koped from friendster><.. .and woah, it got us really confused trying to understand the voting system cuz there were so many different boxes around, and the different posts.. .

haha, i attended the most creative, impromptu and amusing elections in my entire life. we were supposed to go to a really ulu island for interviews one by one after we're given a missed call on our handphones. it was really weird, esp mine was held at 1am, and it was really dark, ulu and scary to walk across the bridge to your interview destination at the beach of the next island.

we just sat down on a bench to stone+crapp+listen to dingchun tell stories+walk around beach trying to pass time+singing randommm songs+finding the ulu toilett nearby +going to 7-11 to get water when i was getting really dehydrated..
and finally, it was nearing to 12am, tiffany and sophh started to practise+sing the birthday song in choir style.haha, and then it was countdown.10, 9, 8 , 7 ,6, ..3, 2, 1.. and it felt really surreal for a moment, i had not countdown for my bd since ages.. .haha, then we started jumping, screaming and going crazy for that one min, this was contrasted to the sane group in front of us who were enjoying the sea breeze and the nice night scenery..

aha, and then me, soph +tiffany waited with the sane group for our turn for interviews.. and i started to talk to ck, haha, and he suddenly wanted me to sing lv guang for him, den we ended up talking abt change 08', and haha, it felt great that someone felt the same thing for change 08'.. .XD

then eve called!.and for a while i tot it was a call for interview, LOl, false alarm, a birthday call + updates for their perf.XD

continues to waitttt, waiteddddd for eternity

!,den yay, phone call from chongchen.XD

finally my turn after sophh

walked across the bridge with mixed feelings, realized this is my very 1st election i'm running in my whole life, yay, my 1st accomplishment for the 17th birthday.. .and i was greeted by torchlights the moment i stepped in there.. set on this square with a candle in the middle.. .the atmosphere felt really warm_and impromptu(not the usual tense atmosphere you get during interviews and elections)..

started to ask pc questions(what make you the suitable candidate as a secretary?)(which post do you prefer, secretary or treasurer?), gave pc answers in return. .

then, they asked me the secretary challenge, which was to memorize a list of items in quantity that ben chan was saying, and haha, i was nervous, and couldnt' catch everything he said. when he started asking me to recall, i totally screwed up that segment. heh, then the last task, which was to sing that song,LOL, cuz they said i'm from gefang. then ended up singing yushang ai!.haha, cuz it was the 1st song that popped in my mind.dang, i wanted to sing school song, cuz the whole bowling team was singing it non-stop while walking to beach,..haha, and hwachong school song is really addictive to sing, it just remains in my top most playlist in my head after singing it a few times.

haha, and that night, the few of us, guojun+ruixian+me+sophh+tifa went on a night trail.. . we went to a 7-11, with the horrible shopkeeper being annoying trying to get rid of us from his shop.. we totally da0-ed him, then guojun and ruixian bought cup noodles, and it got me really really hungry..aha, den tifa said i looked like hungry ghost, cuz of the way i looked at guojun;s noodles longingly, and grabbed a bite tho i kept telling myself not to be tempted.. .has, then we ended up doodling, and playing the flame game, which was this lame game that predicts your future..

it goes like that..

friend, lover, acquaintance, maid(haha,actually i tink it's smthing else.forgot!.lOL), enemy

then you compare 2 names

example, sophia got tested with guojun

sophia vs guo jun,

you cancel o, and you left 10 letters, you go through the flame list counting from friends, and see where you reach after 10 steps..heh, and it ended up on friends, but me and tifa insisted that it landed on lover instead when we counted backwards.LOL

that nite, we ended up sleeping on this ulu island, the highest point at the most southern island at asia.. and it was really cool, chilly, freezing, sandy, and sticky. i ended up regretting going there, the wooden planks we laid on were hard and uncomfortable,. hah, it was an experience sleeping there. i ended up catching my sleep for 1hour.

and the next morn, around 6am,. we made our way back to chalet,

we were gathered to the beach. and we figured that the seniors were going to announce the results for elections.. haha, we waited in anticipation, and ended up, they told us we were going on a treasure hunt, we were supposed to find our own bottles within a designated area in the beach,..we were practically diggging in the sand for our bottles.. LOl, it was really a fun+unique experience..i've never seen such an election conducted in such a manner.. .

then we went for breakfast, and went back to chalet with everyone crowding on 2 single beds, catching up on sleep.we slept like sardines, me beside sophh, dc, qy, tifa and ruixian. i totally couldn't move the entire 1 hour we slept..haha, the people sitting down on the floors started to play cards, and this weird form of dai di.. .

and i decided to go home after that, feeling really shagged, and totally missed the houseball comps +bbq.. ><

~birthday!~

2008-06-11T09:50:00.000-07:00

Thanks so much everyone for the lovely birthday messages and celebrations!

Frankly speaking, i was not really looking forward to this year's birthday cuz of upcoming blocks(which i had unfortunately still have not finish at least half of my revision.*sighs), as well as feeling really xiann and upset that i could not go back to taiwan this year to visit my relatives.. .

so when chen si called me up last week to go k-box, i was finally reminded that my birthday was approaching..><..LOL, and chensi can never ever discreetly organize a suprise birthday celeb, it was always so obvious.XD.haha, but at least it was easier to jio me out this year. chensi had a tough time trying to convince my dad last year so that i could go out one day during the period i was grounded. haha, anws, thanks choir peeps!.lee qi+tiffany+chensi!! i was really touched by all the bd celebs all these years, ur never fail to rmbr my birthday, and esp chensi who always make an effort to make it a grand affair. *leeqi: THANKYOU!. thanks for all these years for being such a bestie. haha, even though these few months we seldom talk on the phone, but i'll always remember the times during pri and sec school, when we will talk non-stop for hours on the phone, sharing secrets and discussing gossips+talking really cheem stuff when you are in your serious mood.. and for understanding me so well, offering me honest advice abt everything.,jiayous for giondes.,LOL.*ahaah, i erm, still dunno how to spell his name.><

~me and chensi~<3

*chensi: thanks for always being there for me all this while, esp during tough times in sec 3 when i was going through a really rough patch in my life. thanks for being really sweet, giving me sweets, gifts and nice little notes.:D, you never fail to brighten up my life, and thanks for just accompanying me all this while from sec 1 to now. and reallyreally appreciate all the birthday celebs that you organize, esp when it's really diff to jio everyone together due to our clashing schedules

*tiffany:YAY!, thanks for being such a crappy, crazy, cheerful girl all this while.XD>haha.and bowling chalet was loves!, esp the countdown for my bd on the beach when we were waiting for turn to be interviewed in the ulu island, hehhh,s and being really HiGH, singing random choir songs and getting ourselves really amused by the troupe of peacocks, and trying to go back to our chalet by disturbing the security guard through the lousy telecom. ..and and and, haha, i just realized that we will be in the same cca for these 4 years, from you being a SL in choir, trying to voice-train me, till now trying to help me cure my back-up..haha, time really flies.. .

from left: chensi, tiffany, lychee

and my clique of friends in change 08'!

thankyou everyone for coming down to town to celeb my bd, i'm touched, really!

*welson: thanks for the birthday song, this year's bd celeb was one of the most craziest, funniest bds ever.XD.haha, continue with your gay imitations and your funny entertaining stories.. :D.i'm really amused.:)

*lego: HAHA, you never to make me laugh with your lego, expressionless face +actions.. . :), continue to rawk on and jiayou for upcoming exams kay?, haha, and i hope to see you soon in expo someday during church.:D

*eve: YIFU!, yeehahh!, thanks for everyything, from organizing my BIG day celeb, and being so nice, and supportive during change concert.jiayous for blocks!.hah,we can go out to mug someday.XD..

*fukuan: XD, haha, thanks for coming down all the way to orchard tho you had bowling trng that day.:), haha, your laughter never fails to amaze me, and your crazy dou yin +great vocals. XD, jiayous for NAGC kay?. you can do it__GO strike!

lego+ fukuan+poker+YIFU+welson. XD

~daily devotion_11th june!~

2008-06-11T08:58:00.000-07:00

11TH JUNE 08’
faith that breathes-for women

God’s word does not suggest that females should just sit passively at home, waiting to serve their men. In fact, scripture indicates that women should be productive and constantly working. However, society has created a stereotype of women, who are always working at the back, passive and often dominated by males in the workplace and politics. in the past, females are considered as the weaker sex, and often looked down upon by males. However, females have proven themselves these years and have shown through their capabilities and talents that they too are competent and as good as their male counterparts.

In the popular passage on the characteristics of a noble/virtuous woman, proverbs 31, it mentioned that a noble woman of God is hardworking, conscientious, confident and is successful in whatever God has given her to do. Proverbs 31: 16-22 “She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks. She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night. In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers. She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy. When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet. She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple.” she has the characteristics of a typical successful businesswomen who is engaged in real estate transactions and business and endeavors that turn into a profit. She is a blessing to the company that she works in, and she demonstrates managerial skills, as well as benevolence to the poor, caring for the family and serving the lord in the ministry. She is one who is able to handles all the different commitments in her life capably, and understands what her priorities are. She is organized and prepares well for her future; she trusts God for everything she does and prays when in doubt.

It is important to note that her husband is blessed by his peers because he has such an industrious woman. A successful man would have a virtuous, God-fearing and understanding wife at his back, supporting him in whatever he does. None of them would be threatened by the success of the other, both of them have equal rights in their relationship. Both parties would work hard in their marriage together, and they constantly pray together for their marriage, and based their relationship on God himself. They care and love for each other, and understands each other’s thoughts and feelings.

Females, rise up, and make your faith in God as “necessary as breathing.” Don’t take on any role in life without God as the foundation.

~revived!~

2008-06-09T00:56:00.000-07:00

whee!.my dear blog is finally revived after dunnoe how many months of stagnantion.LOl... haha

XD

suffering from post-change concert 08' depression
is currently addicted to twssj
misses her lamer friends
can't wait for bowling chalet!
muggging for coming blocks, and procastinating along the way

haha, this is an incoherent blog post, pardon me:D

13 more hours to 17!

2007-06-17T07:58:00.000-07:00

4th june
Hebrews 11:7, 12:1 / apostle Lawrence khong / noah-winning even when you wonder if your life really counts

Most of the bible is biographic and it contains true recounts of interesting characters that are not just wax figures, but figures made of flesh and blood, and all of them are ordinary man/woman, just like you and I, and they lead extraordinary and exciting lives as they walk by faith through the lord. They have experienced the love of God and know that the lord has special purpose and dream for each of them, they put their trust in him, knowing that they will be led to victory. Running the human race is a tough and difficult thing, as it is a long-distance run in which its finishing line is unknown by its runner. We often run along the race with fear and discouragement, for we do not know how our race lies in front of us, and how unpredictable it can be. There are obstacles and barriers in the midst of our race, and we need to learn to overcome them, and to put our trust in the lord, knowing that our God is bigger than all problems and can lead us to victory. Let us run with perseverance for the race that God has marked for us.!~..we need encouragement from the ordinary characters in the bible, and to learn how they have managed to lean on God for strength and perseverance to run the race that the lord has called them to run. They are witnesses for us, of how God can use ordinary people to mighty and awesome things for him.

Run with the winners~ complete the race and be winners in God’s sight

Today, we had an opportunity to talk to NOAH, a great man of God in his times, who obeyed God and managed to save the whole of mankind and animals.

ONE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE

He taught us that the power of one person is so strong, and that one person can indeed make a difference. YOU can MAKE a difference@! God regretted making mankind because all their thoughts were filled with evil, and his heart was field with pain seeing man coming to such a state. He saw how great man’s wickedness had become and he was very grieved that he had made man on this earth, and he wanted to wipe up the whole of mankind every creature that he had created.

However, ONE man found favor in the eyes of God. noah 
He was a righteous and blameless man who walked right with the lord, whereas the whole of earth was corrupted and filled with violence.

You can make a difference:

• For your family
A salvation in the family means that more doors are opened to your family, so that one day they can come to know God. God has a special favor for your family, he wants to bless you and your family. Believe in the lord and you and your household will be saved…so for those Christians out there who are facing persecution from famiy, don’t give up and continue to pray and trust that the lord will bring salvation to your family.

“For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife, and the unbelieving wife has been sanctified through her believing husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy.” 1 corinthians 7:14
A saved soul in the family opens a wider door for God to enter the family, and also to spread the blessings and love of God to the family.

• For your future generations
By one person through you, a thousand generations fown your famioyl line can be blessed. However, the sins of one man can also be passed on to several generations, this curse can only be broken if generations along the family line decides to receive a new life and to accept Jesus as his/her lord and saviour. Sins have corporate effect, they not just affect your own life, they do have a serious impact on the lives of future generations as the curse is passed on.

“..punishing the children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate me, but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments..” exodus 20:5-6

God is a gracious and loving God and shows love and kindness generously of those who have served him and obeyed his commandments, and for a thousand generations, but for those who have defied his commands and strayed away from the lord, the few generations down his family line will suffer because of his sins and ungodly life.

• God’s kingdom
Along the way, you may not be appreciated by people whom you have helped. But you still persevere and never give up despite how hard, how tough it is. You continue to run the race and to reach for the prize at the destination/the finishing line.

dare to stand out in a crowd
people who make a difference are people who are different. DARE to stand out, don’t be afraid to be different, and don’t just flow with the human flow. Don’t be a crowd-pleaser and a trend-follower. Be someone special and unique, who stands out distinctively among the rest because you are different from others, specially chosen by the lord to fulfill tasks that he has called you to. Don’t try to walk the path the world walks, thinking that it is way more fun. HAVE FUN with the lord, doing things far more meaningful and interesting.

Dare to do something for the first tym
Do something different for the lord, and to challenge yourself to do greater and more impossible things for the lord.
Determine to look at the rainbw
Remember GOD’s promises, just as he has promised NOAH. Therefore, be focused and keep your eyes on the lord.
Hebrews 12 :1 “therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw everything off that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.”

LET us run towards the goals that God has given us and to rid ourselves off any barriers and obstacles that prevent us from moving ahead. We can do it not by might, not by power but by the spirit of the lord. For he’s the author and finisher of everything, so let’s put our trust in everything and know that he’s in charge. We need not fear for he’s with us!~

Esther—winning even when you are uncertain about your purpose / esther 4: 13-16 /pastor Nina khong

What’s my purpose and plan in life?

I’m charis yang, FEMALE, HUMAN with 2 eyes, a mouth, a nose, and a perfectly dysfunctional brain, and enjoying my sweet 16 TODAY. And after 16 years of LIVING my life, I have learnt that God has given each and everyone of us a special plan and purpose. That GOD has a purpose and plan for everywhere place that I’m in, in school, my class, the clique that I hang up with, the family I grow up in, the church that God has put me into, the community and neighborhood I live in, the nationality that I possess, the era that I live through, the schools that I’ve attended.

I believe that God has a special purpose for me, that for the families God has placed me in, he has a plan and purpose for it, knowing that I can be of great service and contribution to the family. sometimes, I question the lord why did he put me in this particular family, and God has told me that I can be of great motivation and encouragement to my family members in their various journeys in life, and that even after my mom has left, I have tried to be a source of comfort and shelter for my family members, and to overcome all trial and difficulties with them during this period of time, to act as their mother and sister at the same time, to have fun with them and discipline them at the same time. To always have a solution for them in every problem they face, and to always never fail to cheer them up when times are bad, and to always find time for them when they need me. I would always ensure that I have ample time to tuition my brother when he needs help with schoolwork.

Also, I have an important role to play in school, in my class. I represent the Christians in my class, and the mission that God has set me to is to interact with my schoolmates and to be the light that shines, to serve them and be a blessing in my school. Be a helping, loving kind soul and to do my best in bringing them to know Christ. to get them to be saved, so that my whole class, my school will be saved.

I also find my purpose in church, in the cell group. sometimes, I feel that I mysef is different from others and are unable to mix around with the people in cell group, I am reminded by Esther who was the only Jewish in the Persian palace, and she became the Persian queen, because God wanted her to save the Israelites. God allowed her to be different from the others in the palace so she could be the best person to persuade the king to save her people.

She paid a huge price, and she was not afraid of the things that lie in front of her, she was willing to sacrifice all she had to save her people. she even said, “and if I perish, I perish.: for she knows that God has a plan and purpose for her to save her people, therefore she need not fear for the lord is with her. And she knows that whatever the outcome was, she would accept it, the main important thing was that she tried, and that she had fulfilled the purpose the lord has for her.

2007-03-30T10:09:00.000-07:00

HAHA>.i just realized i haven't posted for at least 2 months..WAHHHs..that's loNGGG!~。。my poor stagnant blog is collecting dust..i'd better revive it soon..:)..

HEH..shall post sum prom photos..SO..lamers..can go "kope" them.!~..cuz i'll be quite lazy to post them on shutterfly..unless i'm free sumdae or smthing.

~409~~

LA 07' with ji lao shi

haha..qiu..we shan't be tempted by your ice-cream :)

2007-01-06T07:25:00.000-08:00

I lost my phone!!! I lost my phone!!!I lost my phone!!!I lost my phone!!!I lost my phone!!!I lost my phone!!!

wahhh!!!..veryy irritated LOOOO.. .i 've totally no idea how i dropped my phone..and where i left it. . .it could probably be in the alley or that drainage..or the grassfields..(yeah..and yanne..for once i hate your grassfields..LOL)..and i searched every nook and cranny of the road leading towards the busstop..looking really stoopid holding a phone..trying to call..while LOOKING and finding my phone along the roads..AND i looked really pissed and bu(2) shunag(3) sitting on the bus and mrt..and looked veryy black-faced..throughout the whole entire trip to jurong point..i got quite a lot of weird stares..cuz i probably looked as if i'm gg to kill someone or smthing. .

wahwah..i neo i'm whining lyke crazy..but i can't help it..!!..now i have to use my sis old phone that doesn't seem to work somehow..and its LG..(yeah..YANNE..it's LG..li ying ai being the spokesperson of it.LOL)..not that i have anything against LG phones..but i'm totally not used to using LG phones.. i'm so attached to my sony erisson.. phone.. .and oHHH..my jaychou keychain that cannot be bought in s'pore is gone forever. ..and to think that i actually got chensi to buy it in shanghai for me..!..losing my phone is a big loss man. . .

YEAHHH..and as usual .i was late.. for our proj/sia meeting. .and luckily i met zona at the mrt station..else i don't know howi 'm gg to contact the rest.. .sometimes..i feel tat i'm too dependant and over-reliant towards my PHONE>.lyke you can't live w/o it.. .ex..i always switch on my phone the 1st thing i come bk from overseas..and i'm NOW not used to that fact that i can't check my messenges and smses on the phone. .

anw..met up with zona/soph/cyn/qiuting..AND AS USUAL..the dbsk fans started talking bout their dbsk stuff..and trying to download their dbsk songs(HEH..qiu..ILLEGAL DOWNLOADING HORS..)..it wasn't when i reminded them that we were meeting up to do SIA..did they stop talking bout dbsk..

and heheh.I"VE felt proud of our grp..cuz i din't neo that these peeps can actually be so serious when they work..LOl..we managed to discuss everything..and to delegate tasks..and to ensure we're on-task.hah..

so in lyke 1hr..we FINIshed everything..and den i rushed off to chensi's hse..

in the end, we ended up watching deathnote 1..and it was extremely COOL..L and kira acted really well..and it was a brillant detective kinda story.. .very cleverly manipulated. . .yeps..and i really really want to catch deathnote2.. .

but after watching the movie amde me think that perhaps..kira at first was actaully a good kind-hearted soulll..whose dream was to become a policeman to help mankind to get rid of evill..BUT..he found a deathnote book which changed his desitny and fate entirely.. .apparently..he actually wanted to use this deathnote to kill and eliminate all criminals..basically..he aims to get rid of all evil on earth..]

but later..you'll find out that he resorts to killing anyone that comes his way..so as to save himself from the police..to get himself off the suspect list..he even killed his own girlfriend..i was veryy disturbed with the fact..that actually when one posses the pwoer to kill and destroy....that even an innocent soul would be infleunced by the deadly, greedy, vicious, and evil root of all. ..in fact..the ironic tihng is that..on the way in search of justice..peace and a more rightoues society..you end up creating more havoc..and trouble..creatinn mroe bloodshed on the way..

OH>.great..this sounds so L.A..sebby will be proud that after year of teaching..i've improved so much..LOL..anws..it's sad that she's leaving.. :(

OHH..and serving in children's club is so fun..i always find it a joy to teach the kids there..even tho it's hard and difficult..but to see them so serious and so setermined to finish their work makes me feel so sastified and happy. .workin with children is always so FUn..they never stop to give you a smile..and they are always so contented with what they have. and YESYES>.they are always so cute..!!

harhar.. so.. i already make it a point to serve at children's club every week..sokpeng says we the young ppl always so ON..haha.. .

2007-01-06T07:22:00.000-08:00

6th jan
Chap 25 “transformed by trouble”

God has a purpose behind every problem. He always uses problems to mould our character and shape our attitude. He depends on circumstances to develop our character and to make us more like Jesus, in fact he relies more on circumstances more than us reading the bible. The reason is simple, we face circumstances 24 hours. Therefore, God feels that this is the most convenient and easiest way to transform our character. God warned us before hand that we would have problems in the world. Everyone is prone to be ill or sick someday, and we are bound to face problems and difficulties in life, no matter how big or small. Life is a series of problems, after we solve one problem, the next problem comes by. Not all of them may be BIG problem, but they re all small and significant to God’s sight because they all contribute to your spiritual growth.

Problems are always normal in life therefore we should not fear them. however, we must always learn to overcome these problems, because if we fail to, we will definitely feel that life is a despair and grew to hate life, and eventually living a LIFe that has no LIFE. (does that make sense..living a life that has no life)

God often uses problems to draw you closer to him. Only when we are feeling lost, desperate and hopeless, then will we turn to God and ask for help. Our most intimate relationships with the lord will be those times that our loneliest, depressed, saddest and worst times in our lives. when we are stuck at a deep end, and we’re running out of options, when our heart has shattered into many pieces and is barely possible to mend the broken heart, when we feel rejected and abandoned, then will we turn to God alone. It is only during suffering that we will turn to God to find shelter, comfort, love, hope, peace and love. Only in great pain, we will learn to pray true, genuine, authentic prayers, not superficial prayers that we do them all year round, but real prayers that come straight from the heart. I was reminded by ps. Khong preaching about the drug addicts in hongkong, where they are so desperate to get rid of their drug addiction that they come in front of the lord to confess their sins so that they can gain a new life and to totally completely get rid of their drug addiction. These are people who really are hopeless beigns who simply have no way out except to take up their cross and follow jesus.

We learn things about God in suffering that we cannot learn in any other way. Brother yun also suffered greatly in china during the revolutionary years, where china undergo a lot of changes in the midst of transforming to a communist state. He wanted to preach the gospel far and wide china, to expand churches as big as thousands and tens thousands, to heal the sick and blind, perform miracles so as to testify the power of the living God. Yet, the officials took notice of him and he became a wanted criminal in china, he was charged with various unknown crimes and later thrown into prison without much of a trial. During all his suffering, he never denied the lord jesus Christ, nor did he ever made himself more distant from God, he remained closer to God even when times he got whipped, beaten and electrocuted. He constantly, fasted, prayed and even spread the gospel to his in-mates. This is a man of faith who leaned on God’s goodness and grace during times of suffering and pain. He never ever stopped giving up, continued to persevere on even though he faced many obstacles in his path. He continue to put his trust in lord, and the lord never let him down, God showed his mercy in many things that he had done and let him escape from his enemies unhurt and unscathed.

2007-01-01T06:28:00.000-08:00

1st jan 2007!!
Sermon devotion / ps khong / when the spirit comes in power—the gifts of the holy spirit today / 1 corinthians 12 : 7-13

We have to learn to move in the holy spirit each and everyday of our lives. To be able to show others that Holy Spirit lives in us, and therefore to manifest the fruits of the spirit, by loving, caring and helping others.

Gifts are supernatural works of grace:

Spiritual gifts are always supernatural; they are always God-given. Thus, an unbeliever does not have supernatural gifts because he/she had not yet received the spirit in their lives. They cannot move in the Holy Spirit and perform miracles nor heal the sick. However, it’s important to note that spiritual gifts are very different from that of natural talents, they are 2 different things and thus cannot mix with each other. Natural talents that are acquired since you were young, but spiritual gifts can only be obtained when you are a believer and its God’s work of grace. For example, ps khong illustrated a story whereby a powerful prophet may be blessed with the spirit of prophesy but he/she may not be walking right with the lord and is a homosexual. However, God has given this gift not because he’s faithful but rather he’s gracious to all. This shows that all spiritual gifts are God-given and thus it’s of the spirit, not by the flesh. We cannot say that these spiritual gifts are from us and thus boast about it.

Supernatural gifts means that we’re able to communicate between spirit to spirit. God can actually also use our natural talents to be spiritual gifts. Therefore, he can sue our natural talents to serve others or to share the gospel. Spiritual gifts are charismata__works of grace. Charis means grace(means you can call me grace too ..LOL) one who is spiritual does not equivalent to one who exercises spiritual gifts. He may only be given spiritual gifts because of grace that the lord has given him. he has been given this particular gift because the lord has shown grace and mercy on him. God is such a great and wonderful God that he gives spiritual gifts to us freely.

Gifts are situational manifestation of the spirit:

We are often given the spiritual gifts only at that moment and then it disappears. Therefore, everyone who exercises spiritual gifs feel empty. We are only able to exercise the spiritual gifts there and then and it disappears after that. God allow us to exercise the spiritual gifts so that we be of a blessing to others and serve them. We can be always available to God, to be a warrior of light anytime to fight in the battlefield.

Gifts must be stirred up in the body of Christ:
It needs practice to be able to exercise the gifts of the Holy Spirit!!

2006-12-23T00:26:00.000-08:00

we in our tiny little cabin..playing with the cam..

hah..the 3 musketeers//crystal, me & aileen

from top: uncle peter//tim//carl// luke//aunt//andrew//aileen

~moi family~

~habourfront~

~picturesqure view of s'pore port~

i was BANNED from gg out 2dae. . .haishais.. so finally had the tym to blog. . i was actually planning to do some xmas shopping. . and perhaps get into the xmasy mood by walking along orcahrd road or BUGIS. . but when i tried asking my dad whether i could go out. .he gave me a deadpan expression followed by a long lecture saying that i have gone out so many times.. and tht i probably should spend more time in my studies as well as my holiday homework.. .and i was trying to do my matrices homework..unfortunately i dint' understand a single thing..and tried reading my math notes.. which was exactly was copied out from my textbook. . and i felt rather cheated printing out those notes..cuz it was totally and completely the same as the a maths textbook..except that they change the numbers in those questions..so you can't really copy whole-sale from the answers in the a-maths textbook. . and then after reading the supplementary notes..i attempted to do the worksheet and it was a failure.. .I WAS STUCK AT THE 1ST QUESTION..AND IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THE EASIEST.. . hais... help!! someone help me with matrices!! :(

2006-12-22T07:10:00.000-08:00

22nd dec
Chap 22 “created to become Christ”

God’s spirit is working in us. It is always the Holy Spirit’s job to change and develop our character. The Holy Spirit is in charge of our character development and the spirit loves to draw close to us. The Holy Spirit wants to produce Christ-like character in us so that we can be more like Jesus. This process that makes us more Godly and holy is called sanctification and it is our 3rd most impt purpose in our lives. We do not have the strength to reproduce Jesus’ character in us. Only the Holy Spirit has the power and strength to mould and develop our character. The Holy Spirit often nudges us with a soft whisper. He guides us to do what is right and lead us away from evil. Christ likeness cannot be obtained by imitation, but only by inhabitation. We can’t just follow Godly, pure, holy and sacred people so that we can be sacred. You also aren’t able to imitate Jesus his way of living just so that you can obtain the Christ likeness character in Jesus. Christ likeness can only be obtained when God lives through you. And that is achieved by choosing to do the right thing in situations and trust God’s spirit to give u his power, love, faith and wisdom to do it. We have to lead a life that is holy and pleasing to the lord that the main goal in our lives is to complete the great commission and to be committed to do the work of the lord.

We must cooperate with the Holy Spirit’s work. Obedience unlocks the power of God. Only when we obey the lord, will God bless us tremendously and perform miraculous acts in your life. Move ahead in your weakness, doing the right thing despite of all our fears and feelings. Because, as what the lord has said, only when we are weak, then we are strong. God’s power only works in our weakness, providing strength for us so that we can have the stamina to carry on. his strength is enough for us to survive and even to surpass our expectations and limits.

The bible often compares spiritual growth to a seed growing into a plant, a construction site in progress, and a child growing up. Each of this action needs active participation. A seed needs to be watered, planted and cultivated; a building has to be built by bricks and a child has to eat and exercise to grow taller and bigger. We need to put in a lot of effort in our spiritual growth; we have to constantly learn the work of God. A new Christian is a toddler; it has only just begun to learn how to crawl. We need to teach it more advanced skills such as walking and running. Likewise, it’s impt that a new-born Christian has to continue to learn and draw near to the spirit, so that he/she will be able to grow more spiritually mature. The bible—the word of God will be his learning textbook, and the spiritual moms/dads/sisters/brothers will be like teachers, guiding and leading the new ones. Therefore in the kingdom of God, everyone is related to one another, and we are one big family. we learn to care and share for one another, looking after each other and making sure that everyone is alright and fine.

2006-12-10T06:45:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED BURFDAE FRANCINE AND CHENSI!!

yesterdae was chensi's surprise bd party. . .haah..and it was super FUN..chensi was not supposed to know that me, terri, lychee and jingyi were going to her hse. .so it was only the fudan 304 grp. . cuz they had to collect their beloved uniforms from chensi. . so in the end. ..the plann goes like this ::::..charissa. .tiffany and wenshi were supposed to meet up with chensi. ..den wenshi will purposely be late... so by the tym tiffany and charissa went to chensi's hse. .wenshi will call over..saying that she's late and has lost her way.. so charissa will accompany chensi to bring wenshi over to her hse..meanwhile.. after chensi had left the hse..tiffany will immediately inform me and terri..den we will rush all the way to her hse. ..carrying all the decor materials..cake ..balloons..blah. .

we really look quite stupid running all the way to chensi's hse..carrying lots of bags..and a huge elmo balloon..den..we were supposed to avoid charissa and chensi when they come..so we had to be careful at the same time . . .and den it was veryy fuNNY..cuz when we were crossing the road..i actually saw chensi and charissa.... ..i panicked ..and starting running lyke crazy. . .terri was at the back..and din't neo wad was gg on. .when she saw me running.she followed after me//den when i told her i saw chensi.. she was lyke freaking out..den she looked behind..and got a glimpse of chensi and charissa's back..we were all so frightened.. .i was practically gg hysterial..stomping and screaming. .LOL..

den..me and terri rushed all the way to chensi's hse at 662b block..found tiffany there. . and waited for chensi..charissa..and wenshi to arrive. .

in the end,..we ended up rehearsing for the surprise entrance while waiting all the burfdae gal to arrive. . ..we made sure we locked the door. . .and den held our breath when they came in..charissa was told to raise her voice when she arrived.so that we could prepare to BOO.. and surprise chensi.. .

AND FINALLY..WHEN CHENSI OPENED THE DOOR. .TIFFANY.. ME AND TERRI..STARTED SENERADING HER WITH A SERIES OF HAPPY BURFDAE APPEGIO CHORDS. . AND SCREAMING AT HER. . SHE LOOKED VERYY SURPRISED.. YEAHS..SUCCESS..OUR PLAN WAS SEAMLESS..IT WAS SUCCESFUL . .

DEN. . . JINGYI AND LYCHEE(THE ULTRA LATE GUESTS) CAME!!.. THEY TOOK A MILLION YEARS TO ARRIVE MAN. .AND MISSED THE WHOLE SURPRISE TOTALLY. .BUT AT LEAST. . THEY DIDN'T MISS THE CHOC CHEESECAKE(PROUDLY MADE BY LIHONG--XMAS BAKE SALE). .. yeps..and the cheesecake was GREAT. .lihong..you rawk ..
choc + cheese+ cake = heavenly sensous delight! = delicious

yeps..and den at nite..my grandparents had sum church gathering at our hse. .and had catered food.. ..met up with a lot of ppl that i ahven't seen for a long tym . .hah..forgotten their existence liaos. .sumtyms its quite sad la. .lyke you neo that there are ppl out there whom you ahven't contact for a long tym. . and den you want to ask them out. . to hang out with them. .but you just find it awkward to call them. or sms them..considering the fact that you havent' been talking to them for at least 2 years. yeah

yesterdae.. was actually francine's bd. . and i din't really have a chance to wish her happy burfdae. .so i decided to go with my cousin aand s. . .to her hse..which is just across my hse..LOl. .

den we went over. . and francine and the rest of the family were actually packing their luggage..cuz they were gg off to korea that nite. . yeps. . wished francine a quick happy burfdae. .and then their parents invited us to eat ice-cream cake. .we took a really long tym to eat. .and my sis even wanted to tour francine's room..cuz she knows that francine's room has a lot of nice stuff. . that her mom who works in mediacorp always give her. . lyke princess hours 's crown..desperate housewifes..slippers. . .and lotsof posters and postcards. . and den both my cousin and sis played and fooled around in her room . .lying..and sleepin on francine's bed.. . den francine's dad came in looking rather pissed.. cuz they were supposed to leave for the airport in 1 hrs tym..and francine was supposed to pack her bag. .so i quickly ask the 2 gals to leave their hse asap.and we moved off. .

ehhs.long dae. sigh

2006-12-10T06:44:00.000-08:00

10th Dec
Sermon devotion/ when the spirit is in power—the God who speaks/ Apostle Lawrence khong

God is constantly speaking to us, and finding ways to communicate with us. He sent Jesus, his only son to be the spokesperson of God when he was on earth to fulfill his duty. When Jesus ascended to heaven after he rose from the dead, he told his disciples that he will send the Holy Spirit to be their comforter and guide. From then on, the holy spirit started a new era – the era of prophesy. God can speak to everyone, and through everyone too. Everybody can prophesize as we’re all given the prophetic spirit. Thus, open up your spiritual eyes and ears when you pray for someone, so that you can help to prophesize for the other person.

Prophetic utterances through the work of the holy spirit:

How does God speak to you?

1) Dreams and visions
A vision is a mental picture of what God wants. So, whenever you received a vision, ask God for a clearer picture as you describe to the person, and also for an interpretation. For dreams, we don’t’ usually take dreams seriously. Often, we tend to forget the content of our dreams; however, dreams are usually quite impt, because God uses dreams to prophesize and to minister. Thus, it’s always best to keep a dream journal and to record all the dreams that you have. Pray and ask God about these dreams, to understand what they actually mean in your life so that you can apply them in your life.

2) words of wisdom
Release wisdom during difficulties and solutions to problems. Try to release words of wisdom when praying in a cell group. The presence of the lord will be manifested when 2 or more gathers. God will speak to those he wants to speak to.

3) words of knowledge
Speaking in tongues usually stimulates the spirit, and thus more prophetic words are given through the person. Tongues are also words of knowledge that needs interpretation.

How do we discern the voice of God?

1) God’s word—the bible. The bible is the ultimate source of truth/God. all prophesies cannot violate the doctrine of the bible. The word of God is the principle to check all prophesies.
2) God’s community—church we all must learn how to operate under God’s community. There’s always protection of leadership in a community, thus it’s much safer to work in a community rather than alone. You will face the danger of being attacked by the devil if you choose to operate alone under supernatural powers. There’s no spiritual family to guide you and to give you advice on how to work.

2006-12-04T06:00:00.000-08:00

2dae. .felt like a short dae. .

in the morning. .made truffles!!. . .finally had tym to make my truffles. . .

i actually tot only a few ppl ordered truffles for my xmas bake sale. !!..den when i looked at my order list..i realised that they were 5 orders..shock!! .

and there were more orders 2dae..YEAH. . hah..

i met lihong 2dae to split the profit..and ehh..i tot we will never be able to cover our capital..BUt i was wrong!!..we actually make up to 10 bucks profit..haha. . PRO right. . and the profit just keeps rushing in. . yeahs..we are not bad xia. . support us, TASTEBUDS!!

heh. . .and den i decided to be guai for once. .so went over to francine's hse to study!!. . .haha..but i din't manage to do much la. .just did my theory. . . .and den i realised i din't neo how to do at least half a pg. . . OH man..i'm gg to die for my piano lesson on weds. . .LOl..and francine told me she actually bought dresses the other dae. . .and she bought lyke at least 10 dresses from a shop(series)..shock..shock !!!..i dint' neo she can shop until she drop..PLUS..she bought skirts. . top off with accessories ..with belt and necklaces. . .i never knew she can shop until so crazy..and moreover. . i dint' neo she actually wore dresses. . haha..anw..she told me that was the 1st tym she bought a dress. and that the 1st tym she shopped till she dropped. . hah..i tink she got influenced by shopaholic MOI in shanghai..LOL. .

den we were discussing abt wad we're gg to do during xmas. . heh.. .i know it's kinda early. .but yeah..no harm plannin. .

we were tinking of asking all the shanghai jiaoda ppl to go out on xmas eve in orchard and stay out all nite..spraying snow at everyone..LOL. or just stay up all nite at francine hse to pillow-talk

heh..so obviously..we ended up talking and laughing instead of studying. . .:). . .

and in the afternoon..went skool to discuss project forQT.. . it seems that it's gg quite smoothly. . hope everything will BE successful . .:)

OH..and i realised that i'm a failure when it comes to adobe. .SAD..den have to qing(2) jiao(4) sophh for a few tyms. . .she 's such a pro . .she can photoshop a pic for 15 mins..and it looks nicer than mine which i do it for at least 2 hrs. . hais. .this shows the difference in quality of work between the pro and an amateur. .

hMM..my aunt and cousins came frm australia to s'pore 2dae..they are only staying for a nite. .yeps. . cuz they'll b flying off to taiwan..where my aunt's dad is going to do a major OP . .and they are praying hard that it'll be successfull..most imptly, they are praying for her dad's salvation . .cuz it seems lyke that dad haven't accepted christ..and from wad i heard my aunt, he is not prepared to die yet. . he has so much fear as to where the future lies. . he is afraid to take the next step, as he's scared that he may take the wrong step . .HMM..so just now. .we had a family prayer.. (its' so long that we had gathered for a family gathering:))

2006-12-04T05:32:00.000-08:00

Sermon devotion / ps. Khong / when the spirit comes into power—the God who heals part2 / luke 16: 15-20

Biblical misconceptions of healing:

~~the value of suffering
Many people think that we learn obedience through suffering, that God purposely plants a sickness or illness in our lives so that we can learn to overcome it and to obey the lord. This is true to a certain extent, whereby we do indeed learn to obey God once we face an almost impossible situation in our lives. BUT, God do not purposely nor DELIBERATELY plants a sickness in our lives, he only allows the devil to let sickness enter into our lives. For every suffering, if our attitude is right, God will let us form our character with it. Our character will be moulded and shaped as we continue to trust the lord in times of darkness and difficulty. We also are able to develop perseverance and determination during this period of times.
BUT we know that the lord do not want us to suffer in pain for so long, he wants to heal us. Therefore we know that the lord will definitely deliver us for the glory of God. Let’s believe God for the victory!! God can use what is evil and turn it to something GOOD!

~~paul’s thorn in flesh
In 2 Corinthians 12 :7-9, Paul mentioned that the weakness that God has given him, he is able to boast about them because when he is weak, then God’s power will rest on him. the weakness is often misinterpreted as sickness, however it ACTUALLY refers to PEOPLE, specifically messenger of Satan. Evidence can be found in numbers 33:55 whereby hated people are called barbs in your eyes and thorns in your sides. THUS, the weakness mentioned in 2 cor is referred to messengers of Satan who will obstruct and block the will of God.

ONLY 50% of people can be healed in the bible, which shows that healing is actually not that easy. In fact, Jesus, the son of God also said that healing requires a lot of qualifications, and that only in certain circumstances can healing take place. And healing is normally a long process; it doesn’t always take place instantaneously.

Why are some people not healed?

1) we live in an imperfect world whereby death is compulsory for everyone to go through. And ageing is a MUST-process for each person to go pass.

2) we lack faith to believe God for healing.
We’ll only be blessed/healed to the extent of faith we have.

3) we have sin in our lives that prevent us from receiving healing from the LORD!..therefore sickness comes into our lives because the devil has the chance to use sin to enter into our lives.

2006-11-28T17:41:00.000-08:00

28th NOV
chap 17 : “a place to belong”

We are called to belong, not just to believe. We are not created for isolation and seclusion; we are created for community, shaped for fellowship and fashioned for a family. In God’s family, we are interconnected to every believer, and we all belong to each other for eternity. We are members of the church body. Being a member means being a vital organ of a living body, an indispensable part of the body of Christ. The church is a live thing; it’s a body, a group of Christians wanting to serve the lord. It’s not a body or an organization. It’s like an organism that is alive and kicking.

For all the organs of the body to function, the must all be connected to the body. Thus, for the body of Christ, everyone has to cooperate, to be connected to the body so that each can serve according to what the lord has prepared for them. Everyone is created for a specific role, but we will miss the 2nd purpose of our lives if we’re not attached to a local, living church. We only discover our role in lives through our relationship with others, we discover that we can be a blessing and help to other’s lives.

If an organ is somehow severed from its body, it can longer survive on its own. It will shrivel and die. It cannot exist on its own, and it’s the same as the body of Christ. If you are somehow disconnected and cut off from the lifeblood of a local body, you spiritual life will waver and gradually cease to exist. That is why usually the symptoms of backsliding and spiritual decline are inconsistent attendance of church and cell group meetings.

Nowadays, membership in church is inconsequential and trivial; no one stops to care about the membership in church. People are not consolidated properly, and new believers gradually step out of their faith. The church is indestructible and will continue to exist for eternity. Some people who are arrogant or proud may say that they do not need the church to help oversee their spiritual growth. However, the bible says that the church is so significant that Jesus died on the cross for it. The church is normally referred to as “the bride of Christ” and the “body of Christ”. It makes no sense if we tell Jesus “I love you, but I hate your wife” or “I accept you but reject your body”. Thus, we have to love our spiritual family no matter how difficult it is. Sometimes, it is extremely hard, seeing that some of our fellow brothers and sister are very difficult to deal with. They may be imperfect, but we have to learn to love and care for them no matter how hard it is. Try and talk to them, teach them and mould them so that their lives and character can be changed and transformed.

2006-11-27T06:19:00.000-08:00

i've realized this blog has been rotting for a long time..

so i've decided to update a bit. . haha..to reduce the rotting process of moi blog. .

OHHHH..PPL..come support me in my xmas bake sale..!!!..i'm selling veryy nice and fresh cookies.. as well as cheesecake(where 's nahnah???!!)..and truffles. .with diff flavour toppings and fillings. . . .

yupps..so the menu goes as follows:

***MENU****

-cookies-
[peanut butter]
[green tea]
[choc chip]
each bag of 10 cookies ($3.50)

cheesecake
[new york style]
[oreo cheesecake]
*7-inch ($16)

truffles
*milo
*white choc
*various nuts
*cocoa powder

a box of 6truffles for $4
a box of mini-truffles for $1.50

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YES..and today i got a new customer liaos.. .thanks to QT who bought a bag of peanut butter cookies..and mini-truffles..i'm tinking of giving her more. .since she's so skinny. . . . ..she havent' been gaining weight since after the NZ trip..poor gal . .and i was laughing lyke crazy when i saw her rebonded hair 2dae. ..she looked so different. . so much lighter and flattened.. . and i no longer can tease her...cuz she no longer looks lyke sanmao. . sad.sad..BUT nvm..she still has the sanmao character in her. . the weird. . crazy..diao sanmao

yeps..and 2dae we have to attend the 站在新闻前线SPH prog..and it was super funn. .they talked to us about how to be a good reporter . . and they 爆米花lady..(i forgotten her name liaos).. .she was showing us all the pics she took with singers, actors and actresses. .and it was super cool. .lyke these reporters actually get a chance to interact and talk with them.. :)

den there was also a talk on professional photography. . .lyke how to take pics with good angle and degree.. .and i've realized you can take really good pics from a high degree(angle of elevation..LOL)..and low degree(angle of depression . .heheh..my math not bad:))..and the bunch of photos he showed us were of good quality.,,veryy artistic and full of expression . .:)

den later we had to present a report on sum 讲故事比赛. . and i was crappin the whole way for my report. . diao..i've realized my chi deteriorated after my china trip..funny eh.?..

den.. we had to present our school news report. . .and me..QT..yanne and jes. . purposely din't wann to present our somewhat crappy report. . so we forced our beloved juniors to help us present. . :).. .we're misuing our senior authority..LOL. .

they presented quite well la. . but there was already another grp who presented exactly the same content(on the teachers day perf done by our canteen aunty and uncle dancing chacha and latin)..and they did pretty well by acting out a skit. .yeps.. . so they kinda beat us down. .

YES>. and the office of the SPH is cool..they ahf a veryy nice enviroment to work in. . it's so NICE.. pretty and all . . i wann to work in SPH>.:)

AND i've realized i haven't post finished all my china pics. . as well as shanghai biennale . .which yanne wanns to see.:)

* the pretty meandering pathways of their school hostel. .we've always like to sit in the stone seats of the maze to eat our instant noodles

*this is one of the rooms of the guy's hostel..i found it really amusing that he actually put a poster that says "i love you"..i wonder if it came frm one of his g/fs. . oH..and the funny thing is..the 1st tym i read it..i couldn't understand wad it was..cuz i read it from the left.."you love i".LOL

*yeah..we've arrived at shanhai art museum!

*6th shanghai biennale

*one of the paintings in shanghai bienialle.. .

*i love this series of paintings on this little gal. . she's just full of character. .veryy cute.:)

*there's actually a sensor that tells you the total weight of the visitors. . COOL!

*does this look lyke a BIG pumpkin to you.?

*SURPRISE SURPRISE! hehheh..IT'S actually a CUTE LITTLE GAL*

*old, ancient fireplace. .doesn't it make you reminiscence of the past.?

*ASTROBOY!

*cute wooden doggie

*jelly-like skeleton. . creepy man

*the upside down toilet. .

*glittery floor. . oH man. . when i saw this. . i was so in love with this. .***. . it would be so perfect if my floor was lyke that. .

2006-11-27T06:18:00.000-08:00

27th NOV
chap 16 “what matters most”

Life is all about love. Love is needed to foster a good relationship. However, loving is not an easy task, especially if you’re instructed to love unselfishly. It is only in loving that we can be like God, to be kind and caring to our loved ones. God wants us to love everyone, but he’s more concerned that we learn to love others in his family. We should offer special attention to those who are in the family of believers. God’s family needs to get priority in loving because our love for one another is the greatest witness to the world. . Our strong love for each other will prove that we are God’s people. We must continue to have close fellowship with other believers, so as to develop the skill of loving. Love cannot be learned in isolation, love has to be developed in relationships. Sometimes, love is even required with difficult, imperfect, irritating, frustrating and imperfect people. We’ve to learn to talk and deal with them.

Love has to be our top priority, and the greatest objective in life. Love has to play a major role in our lives; it’s the most impt thing.

Life without love is worthless:

Often, we try to squeeze time and find time for our fwens, children or parents. This gives a big impression that relationships are just part of our lives along with many other trivial tasks. BUT that’s not the case, relationships are what life is all about, and itself is really impt. Without love, life is just nothing at all!

Busyness is a great enemy of relationships. We become preoccupied with work, doing our own stuff and accomplishing our own goals and dreams. The point of life is to learn others and God.

Love will last forever:

Love is eternal, thus it’s impt that we make love our main priority is life. love leaves a legacy. It has a great impact on those ppl who you have showed love and concer for. It’s not how much you do, but how much love you put into it that matters. Love is a long lasting heritage that will last forever.

We will be evaluated on our love:

We will be evaluated of our love in eternity. God measures spiritual maturity by the quality of your relationships. Do you show genuine love and concern for your spiritual sisters and brothers.?

2006-11-16T06:30:00.000-08:00

16th nov
chap 9 : “what makes God smile?”

The purpose of our life is to make God smile, is to please our lord God almighty. Follow the example of Noah, the man who completely obeys God without any hint of hesitation or procrastination. When he was asked to build a boat to save his family from the flood, he obeyed the lord immediately and took 120 years to build the ship. He did not care the ridicule and the criticize he would receive when he was building a ship that big enough to carry his whole family and other land animals, he just did what the lord wanted and believed that there’s a reason as to what the lord has told him.

God smiles when we obey him wholeheartedly:

Whenever the lord entrusted you with something, do it completely, don’t CHOOSE to obey a few instructions and ignore the rest. Understand that the lord has a reason to accomplish that certain task and wishes you to trust him to fulfill his promises and purposes. Obeying God wholeheartedly means to obey the lord without any reservations and hesitation. There’s no procrastination in it, whereby we tell God we want to think and consider about it. Instant obedience is always appreciated. Delayed obedience is often considered disobedience, God has set up different specific time frames for each task, and thus we are supposed to follow that time frame to finish the task. Thus, any hesitation will spoil the results that God wants to achieve.

Obedience unlocks understanding, only when we obey the lord, then we begin to open our spiritual eyes to know and understand what is going on around us. We begin to understand God’s heartbeat and understand what he really wants for US.

There’s no alternative such as partial obedience, YOU can’t say you love God, when you don’t LOVE your neighbours. You can’t say you go to church and don’t’ give tithes, you can’t say you’re a real Christian unless you have developed an intimate and serious relationship with the lord.

God smiles when we praise and thank him continually:

we learn to live a life of thanksgiving and praise. No matter what happens, thank the LORD>thank the lord for the nice sunny weather, and the delicious mouth-watering food during dinner and the wonderful friends who stayed by my side through the difficult times. Thank God for everything, sometimes when you’re feeling down, and that there’s seriously NTHING about what you can thank God, and then think about the cross. You can still thank God for sending his only begotten son to die for us on the cross to pay for our sins.

2006-11-15T06:04:00.000-08:00

i'm back from shanghai!!

..i'm finally back in s'pore after 2 long weeks in shanghai..felt so different when i came bk. . lyke everything seems so different even tho it's only 2 weeks. .

my sis finally finished her exams. .no longer have to tutor her LIAOS>. YAY..hooray. . i'm finally free from the torture. .you won't know how difficult it is to tutor your own sis. .she's so restless when she studies. . you really have to tie her to a chair to make sure she doesn't move around and concentrate on her homework. .LUCKY it's all over. . and the best thing is that she did pretty well for her exams..scoring 100 for her math. .in which she was gloating over. .that she specially smsed me to notify me bout her surprisingly brillant results in shanghai. .

OH..and i forgot to mention smthing. . hah..i have smthing to gloat bout. .other than the fact that i'm a good tutor cum sis. .

jaychou was at shanghai(pudong) international airport on 31st oct..on the same dae as me.. .:)..and i was veryy upset that i din't manage to spot MY IDOL in the airport. .yikes. .sad Lo

picture from http://www.jay-chou.net/ :

picture from my cam..I CAN'T SPOT JAY!! ::

our dorm :)

my CLASS!!

the china students study veryy hard. . .they are having their math lessons..and i couldn't sit there anymore listening to all those cheem stuff. .it was very boring..almost fell asleep..so i excused myself. . and went all the bk to the class to take photos for my SIA..:)

my math teacher. . he's a jolly man who loves to joke a lot. .:)

me and tifa waiting for the yue ju to start!

me & jeanne :)

doesn't the dog look cute. ?. .it's so small and tiny. .perhaps. .smaller than a chihuahua. .i spot it running across the skool compunds. . it looked really cute with its small tiny legs. .:)

both sams (sam yong and sam sin) with the ice-cream bush. . doesn't the bush looks lyke the ice-cream sold in swenwens. .haha

the school..general office.

the mushroom-like thing is actually taps for them to wash their hands b4 eating. .they also wash their own personal bowls and plates after each meal . .

the jiaoda ppl are very hardworking. .they actually walk around their school track studying or memorising stuff. . it's very interesting..seeing them holding books and walking around the track. .

the school stall..we visit it mostly at nite..to but cup noodles and niCE hot meatballs. :)

best PILLOW talk mates = francine and mindy :)

our pillow talk corner. . here's where we're got thrown by a big pear. . mindy nearly got hurt. . . .the pear literally smashed into pieces like glass pieces. . it was so scary. . and it was obvious that the person who threw the pear were the guys..cuz it was coming from the guys dorm . .and the person who threw it was so accurate..presumbly sum guy basketball . .

a note to our beloved li zi nan hai!!..we're gg to miss you.

2006-11-15T06:02:00.000-08:00

15th nov
chap 8 : “planned for God’s pleasure”

We are all planned for God’s pleasure, to please, delight him. We existed for his benefit, his purpose and his delight. The first purpose of our lives is to please our creator, the lord most high. So to please him, we’ve gotta do things that pleases him, to fulfill the GODLY promises and purposes in our lives. When we understand that we are impt to our God, we will therefore not have the problem of inferiority and insignificance in our lives. We know that each and everyone of us is impt and valuable to God, we are children of God, treasured and loved by him.

God wants us to enjoy the life that he has given us, so that our lives are not meaningless. . But rather we live everyday meaningfully. .with great joy and love. We live everyday the way God wants, living in the light of the 2nd coming, so that everyday to us is a NEW dae. .that’s how it goes. . God wants us to enjoy life, not just endure it. When you live everyday of your life for God, you’ll find that life is so much more FUN, and interesting. It’s not just sum old boring thing that you’re doing, you’re enjoying every minute of ur life. therefore, let’s not just live for ourselves, but for GOD.

Worship is not just singing unto the lord, or just expressing our thanksgiving and delight unto the lord. Worship is far more than that, it’s a form of lifestyle.

Worship is far more that MUSIC:

People always classify worship as a synonym for music, they think it’s just pure singing unto the lord, or making music for the most high. Clearly, this isn’t true. worship consist of everything that’s happening during church service, it includes, sermon, singing, praying, taking notes, giving offering, communion and baptism. It comprises of all that is a form of pleasure to the lord. Therefore, worship has nothing to do about the music we sing during service, it has nothing to do about the style, the volume and the speed. It doesn’t matter how people choose to worship the lord with the music, it can be singing hymms, or sometimes simply keeping quiet amidst the presence of the lord. The style of music Christians worship differ from one church to another. Many defend their own style of music, saying that this is more suitable to worship the lord and that this style of theirs is more appropriate and more preferred by God. Frankly speaking, there is no specific correct worshipping style. God loves all worship, not matter if it’s rock music or simply hymms. It ‘s all like sweet melody to his ears, and sweet honey to his lips. THEREFORE, there is no such thing as Christian music, there’s only Christian LYRICS. It is the words sung unto the lord that matters, not the tune. It is the lyrics that is sung lyke a prayer unto the lord.

2006-11-14T07:12:00.000-08:00

14th nov
chap 7: the reason for everything”

We honor God by fulfilling our purposes on earth. “When anything in creation fulfills its purpose, it brings glory to God.” The birds brings glory by chirping, flying, mating, and the cats do it by meowing, licking milk and simply sleeping. We are made differently, God made ants to be ants, and us to be us.

We being God glory by serving others with our gifts:

We are all different people and are equipped with different talents and abilities. Some are musically inclined, or perhaps have the dance streak in them; others simply are eloquent in speech and can say an impromptu speech anytime, anywhere. We can use our talents and abilities to serve others, for example, if we are good with children, able to talk and play with them, we can serve in the children’s ministry in Sunday school or giving tuition to the kids weak in their studies. God has given each of us spiritual gifts and abilities, manage it well, use them to bless others so that people will be greatly blessed through you.

We bring God glory by telling others about him:

Since we know that God has designed a unique and special purpose in each and everyone’s life, therefore we should not keep this truth as a secret. Rather, let’s share it with others so that they too will also have this privilege, discovering their destiny and purpose in life, to prepare them for an eternal purpose. We also want them to be part of the kingdom of God, so that when the 2nd coming has come, we will be reunited with friends and loved ones.

We bring God glory by worshipping him:

When we worship God, we are giving him the greatest glory and honor. It is our responsibility to worship, for as long as we live, all tongues should proclaim that Jesus is lord and king. worship itself shouldn’t be a chore. It should be a form of enjoyment, we should enjoy the presence of the lord as we worship him. our worship should be motivated by love, thanksgiving and delight, not DUTY and discipline.

2006-10-30T02:40:00.000-08:00

29th oct
sermon devotion :
be accountable—the best return on investment / matthew 25 : 14-30 / rev Melvyn mak

The day of the 2nd coming is the day of the accounting. Everyone will be accountable of the “talents” that we are entrusted with on the day of the 2nd coming. Everyone is given the talents according to our own needs and abilities, therefore. God will decide on how much “talents” he will entrust you, so as to make sure that you’re capable of accomplishing the tasks that he has given you. Everyone has different abilities, thus God will entrust you with the talents according to your own ability. You do not need to feel more inferior if you’re entrusted with lesser talents, because just like the “5 loaves and 2 fishes” story, you’ll be able to use what has given you to shine for God and bless others. You’ll be able to multiply and expand your “talents’ that the lord has entrusted you with.

1) The truth of recognition—God trusts us as managers
The 1st quest..we should ask ourselves..would be.”are we good managers?”. Do we make full use of what the lord has entrusted to us.?. the Lord has recognized that we are people to be trusted thus he is willing to entrust us with so much money and inheritance, blessings and abilities. In the olden days, 1 talent is equivalent to $600 000..which shows that the master(which represents God) trusts and recognizes his servants(we, the people of God) so much that he readily entrusts them with the huge amount of money to invest and take good care of. We are managers of these talents, not owners. Thus, it’s important that we invest of the ‘talents’ that God has entrusted us with, because we want to make good use of what the lord has entrusted us with. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20, “you are not your own, you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.” We do not own ourselves, neither do we own the talents. We were bought at a price by the blood Jesus Christ that is stained by our sins, thus it’s impt that we honor God with our body and our actions and life. God entrusts us according to our abilities of our positions TO SUCCEED, thus there’s not excuse!!..we’re gotta do something to our talents, and not just leave it there to ROT. .LOL..God always entrusts us with something BIG..cuz he believes in us and knows that we’re capable of success. . he has given each and everyone of us enough ability and strength to conquer the challenges that God has given us, and knows that we CAN all do IT. .

Sometimes we blame God when God takes away our talents, and we get envious of people who get 5 talents, while we ourselves are only stuck with 1 pathetic talent. BUT, always remember that nothing is our life belongs to us, God gives and God takes away, he decides whether he should remove or provide us with talents. REMEMBER JOB, the guy who led a terrible life, and who was under poor circumstances. Even though he suffered a lot in his life, but he never forgot to praise the lord during his suffering, for he understands that God is in control of his life, and he must have his own reasons from removing all his blessings and allowing intense suffering to happen in his life.
2) Truth of responsibility –God expects us to multiply
God expects a return of his investment. He wants us to multiply with the talents that we are entrusted with. We have to be like the 1st and 2nd servants who managed to multiply all their talents that they are given with. The faithfulness of God will always remain with us, as his love for us never changes. Revelations 4 : 11 “you are worthy, our lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being.” Worthy = deserving, therefore we worship a worthy God for he loves us so deeply that he gave his one and only begotten son, so that we can receive eternal life. He is a WORTHY God, he truly deserves our praises. Multiplication is the love of the fruit, only when we truly love others, then we can grow and multiply.

There will come a time when there will be 2 judgements:

Judgement of the great white throne (judgement of everyone)
And judgement of the saints(believers)

3) truth of relationship—we must experience the master’s love
We must have a correct perception/view of the lord so that we’re able to have a good and close relationship with HIM.
2 corinthians 5 :8-10 :”we walk by faith, not by sight.” we do everything by faith, not by seeing things. Although seeing is believing, but our spiritual walk with God is determined by the faith with have. It does not matter how small or big our faith is, as long we have faith as small as a seedling, we are able to do great things for God. Faith is like a secret weapon, as long as you own this secret weapon; you will be able to perform miracles—blessing others. 1 Corinthians 3:12-15 __the day of his 2nd coming will be a day of intense FIRE. Therefore, let’s build gold, silver and stone, not things that are made of hay and straw. This gold, silver and stone would be able to survive under high heat, and we will be able to receive our rewards. “whoever saves his life loses it, but whoever loses his life save it.” Whoever does the work of God and is willing to lose his life for the furtherance of God’s kingdom, will be saved eventually, but whoever is selfish and only wishes to save his life will eventually loses his life.

the 1st 2 servants enter into the joy of the lord while the last servant goes to the weeping and gnashing of teeth. Weeping and gnashing of teeth = death/hell..it seems scary..isn’t it.?.....yes,,this parable is a serious parable .. that shows that if we do not do what God has wanted, which is to multiply our talents..then we will end up being banished into hell,,suffering. .in the deep pits and never to return again.

Moreover the 3rd servant had a wrong view of the master, he thought he was a cold master, and therefore is unwilling to multiply his talents. He did not even think of putting into the bank, where interest could be collected. The servant had a wrong perception and thus, fear comes into his hearts. He becomes really afraid of his master and does not wish to work for him.

2006-10-29T07:58:00.000-08:00

devotion of the week

29th oct
sermon devotion :
be accountable—the best return on investment / matthew 25 : 14-30 / rev Melvyn mak

The day of the 2nd coming is the day of the accounting. Everyone will be accountable of the “talents” that we are entrusted with on the day of the 2nd coming. Everyone is given the talents according to our own needs and abilities, therefore. God will decide on how much “talents” he will entrust you, so as to make sure that you’re capable of accomplishing the tasks that he has given you. Everyone has different abilities, thus God will entrust you with the talents according to your own ability. You do not need to feel more inferior if you’re entrusted with lesser talents, because just like the “5 loaves and 2 fishes” story, you’ll be able to use what has given you to shine for God and bless others. You’ll be able to multiply and expand your “talents’ that the lord has entrusted you with.

1) The truth of recognition—God trusts us as managers
The 1st quest..we should ask ourselves..would be.”are we good managers?”. Do we make full use of what the lord has entrusted to us.?. the Lord has recognized that we are people to be trusted thus he is willing to entrust us with so much money and inheritance, blessings and abilities. In the olden days, 1 talent is equivalent to $600 000..which shows that the master(which represents God) trusts and recognizes his servants(we, the people of God) so much that he readily entrusts them with the huge amount of money to invest and take good care of. We are managers of these talents, not owners. Thus, it’s important that we invest of the ‘talents’ that God has entrusted us with, because we want to make good use of what the lord has entrusted us with. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20, “you are not your own, you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.” We do not own ourselves, neither do we own the talents. We were bought at a price by the blood Jesus Christ that is stained by our sins, thus it’s impt that we honor God with our body and our actions and life. God entrusts us according to our abilities of our positions TO SUCCEED, thus there’s not excuse!!..we’re gotta do something to our talents, and not just leave it there to ROT. .LOL..God always entrusts us with something BIG..cuz he believes in us and knows that we’re capable of success. . he has given each and everyone of us enough ability and strength to conquer the challenges that God has given us, and knows that we CAN all do IT. .

Sometimes we blame God when God takes away our talents, and we get envious of people who get 5 talents, while we ourselves are only stuck with 1 pathetic talent. BUT, always remember that nothing is our life belongs to us, God gives and God takes away, he decides whether he should remove or provide us with talents. REMEMBER JOB, the guy who led a terrible life, and who was under poor circumstances. Even though he suffered a lot in his life, but he never forgot to praise the lord during his suffering, for he understands that God is in control of his life, and he must have his own reasons from removing all his blessings and allowing intense suffering to happen in his life.
2) Truth of responsibility –God expects us to multiply
God expects a return of his investment. He wants us to multiply with the talents that we are entrusted with. We have to be like the 1st and 2nd servants who managed to multiply all their talents that they are given with.

3) truth of relationship—we must experience the master’s love
We must have a correct perception/view of the lord so that we’re able to have a good close relationship with HIM.

2006-10-29T06:00:00.000-08:00

2006-10-28T08:14:00.000-07:00

high

super high man..

2dae was aunna's bd party..project forA is ready in action.. . .

the 1st thing we did was to change into our retro outfit. .:)..yeps..now look ready to dance and party!!

and den wendy brought the curlers..so yuan ting the expert was helping us PERM/CURL our hair. .and we looked reall mature. . and i finally realised that i LOOKed nice in permed HAIR.. YES..for once i 'm actually quite satisfied with my hair.:)..i'm reconsidering cutting my hair. .mayb i shall leave it long and go perm IT..HMM..but skool don't allow LEH..sad

hahas..den we took really diao pics. .acting cute and ALl.. ...posing in front of the mirror lyke xiao za bOh..and we ended up spending the whole morning making ourselves look nice and presentable.. I DID my NAIls. .yeah.. .wendy helped my do the white coating manicure..cuz i was simply hopeless with doing manicure. . .hah..and den i did the cowprint style. .drawing black cow dots.. on my nails. .AND IT ACTUALLY LOOKS QUITE NICE..:). .guess i wasn't too hopeless with manicure after all. . .

**^me and x-lyn playing with the caM..!

2006-10-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

devotion of the day

28th oct
Isaiah 59 : “sin, confession and redemption”

“Surely the arm of the lord is not too short to save, nor his ear too dull to hear. But your inequities have separated you from your God.” Sometimes, we feel that the lord is so far away from us, and that he’s not doing anything to save us from all our problems and difficulties in life. We feel that perhaps we are too insignificant in the eyes of the lord and that he probably did not hear our prayer requests to him. BUT, the fact is..God listens!!..he listens to every little prayer that we make cuz each and everyone of us is made special in God’s sight. So then, why are we separated from God, why is there a visible barrier between us and God. that’s because we have sins in our lives that we are unable to surrender you to the lord, our lives are not a living sacrifice unto the lord. We are simply so different from the lord, God is so high up, holy and sacred, while we have too much inequities and sins in our lives. God’s sets a very high standard and scale for all his sons and daughters, he wants them to live their lives in truth, love and peace, following his word daily, so that we can be a living testimony to our friends and family. When God is faraway from us, we feel very lost and scared, afraid that we’ll soon lose the connection between us and him. There was a period of time, when I felt so distant from God, I felt so afraid and frightened, it’s like the kinda feeling you get when a young kid gets lost from his/her parent in an amusement park. You suddenly feel very LOST, there’s no longer joy in your heart, but fear and depression, it’s like your soul being sucked out. There was no purpose or goal in life, and everything seemed very hopeless. I felt very lethargic and tired the whole day, and at night I couldn’t sleep at all. Negative and bad thoughts filled my whole mind, and I couldn’t concentrate in whatever I was doing throughout the whole day.

I did not know what was going on and kept trying to pray and seek the lord, asking for a solution to get out of this crazy and mad situation. After a few days, I realized that there was actually too much sin and dirt in my life, and that God also wanted a major breakthrough in my life cuz I was facing many problems in that period of time, and didn’t know how to proceed on in life. God told me that I’ve gotta do something about my life and that my heart needs to do some major “washing” and “rinsing”. I knew that there were many sins in my life that were not severely dealt with yet, so after hearing what the lord had to say. I tried really hard to do what the lord has said, and to get rid and eliminate of all the bad influences in my life and to make sure that my life is acceptable and pleasing unto the lord.

The sins in your life can easily create a barrier between you and the lord. LIVE your life the way God wants and live everyday as if there’s no 2mr. live 2mr like there’s no 2mr..(sounds cheem?..haha). .

Yeps.yeps.therefore, a healthy spiritual relationship is essential in our lives, so that there’s always joy and happiness our lives.

2006-10-26T08:33:00.000-07:00

farewell mdm mak..

再见mdm mak

ouveau mdm mak..

must miss us kk.?

yeps..2dae was the last DAE of skool. . so HAPPY..after this week..i'm gg to shanghai SOON..yeps..so excited. . .this few daes.. i have been so busy that i did not have tym to pck my shanghai bag.. so i tink i must start packing my bag LIAOS> . .

i've realised this few daes..i keep procastinating.. lYKE for example. .i'm supposed to start on Aunna's prezzie last wk. . and yT's bd prezzie last last wk. . .argh.. .and now..i'm not even half-way thru Yt's prezzie. .AND>.yt's burfdae is already long gone over. .last week. . so i'm supposed to give her an overdue prezzie.?..oH.GOSH..wad's happening to me.?..last tym i wasn't lyke that. . i was more organized task-oriented..now. EVEN THO it's in the hols. . but i feel that there's so much stuff to do and i don't have a proper schedule. .

hah..and i actually wanted to finish goong b4 i go to shanghai but i guess i couldn't. .cuz i haven't even finish watching the 3rd disc.. .the PART WHEN chae kyung fainted. . it was so interesting to see how shin was acting so cool abt it even tho he really cared fer her. .haha..i was laughing when i see both of them squabbling. .

yeps..anw.. 2dae's skool was OK. . .in the morning we had spring-cleaning. .so we clearing our dear 309 classroom which was cluttered with loads and loads of rubbish. . and there were many temasek polytechnic magazines and weird random newsletters and huge piles of papers. . so i decided to bring home a huge stack of TP newsletters fer my beloved granny to fold into table mats. .yeps..i'm a filial granddaughter..:)..haha..

and it was heavy..mind you. .and the worst thing was it was raining very heavily.. and i was struggling to carry the heavy stack and my umbrella.. and i looked really pathetic..

and the worst thing of all..was that my granny said that 32 copies of the newsletter was not enough to fold her table mats. .

and i was quite SAD..cuz i "sacrificed" a lot for the newsletters..so as to keep them dry..i had to use my body and skool bag to shelter the "precious" newsletters from getting wet. .

sebb actually bought class breakfast fer US>.so touched.. .:).. .i changed my impression of her. . dere and den after. .and nxt yr she's not teaching us. . i really hope she can remain our form teacher.. even tho along the way..309 din't really accept her as a REAL and TRUE form teacher. .but's she still veryy nice and encouraging. .always trying to knwo us as a class. .at least she put in effort in talking to us and interacting with us. .:)

and the best of all..was mdm mak's farewell party.. YEAH. .mdm mak is leaving liaos.. .it's quite sad tis year. .cuz many ppl are leaving me .. lyke my maid. .she;'s gg bk to phillipines cuz she finished her contract. .and she wanns to go bk to settle down with her husband..they just got married last year..newly-weds..hah..but i can't bear to her go.. even tho i dislike her sumtyms.. but BI(4) JING(4) she stayed with us at least 7 years. . and i know i'm gg to MISS her.. .

so i was tinkng of her getting her smthing nice.. lyke a dress or smthign..b4 she leaves.. :)

yES>.and jac, jia min and mel Goh sang reall well during the mdm mak's farewell perf. .it was chao(1) good. . .i felt so inferior man. . lyke i'm also a choruster. .BUT i can't sing. . .they sang close to you and ye lai xiang. . and they blended really WELL.. :)). .ant was recording their singing...cuz it was really GOOD.... ..lyke their singing can really melt hearts.. .
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if the whole choir..is filled with jiamins.jacs..and melgohs.. i tink we choir nxt yr surely get gold with honours. .But..with the current hopeless situation. .with losta scolding frm ms lim. .and if the juniors just refuse to open their mouths and sing. . then well .. i tink we 'll do very badly fer nxt yr's SYF..perhaps even a bronze. .

hais..tat's depressing !

anw..at night..i went to x-lyn's hse to buy 2nd-hand clothes frm her. . OH..that reminds me. .!!.. DOES ANYONE WANT TO BUY 2ND-HAND CLOTHES FROM ME.? ..I 'M TRYING TO CLEAR MY WARDROBE. . !!

yeps.. .cuz lyke i realize i have too many un-worn clothes that is verii diff to pei(4),..and sum of them are gettin too small..which shows..i'm gg fatter.. .sighs.

2006-10-26T08:31:00.000-07:00

devotion of the day

26th oct
Isaiah 57 : “God’s accusation against the wicked” “ comfort for the contrite”

“The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart; devout men are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from the evil.” Before the 2nd coming of Christ, there’ll come a tym of rapture period, where the Christians and those are followers of God will be brought up to join the Lord, whereas the rest of mankind will be left behind. Only true believers and followers of Christ will be granted this special privilege to join the lord in the heavenly realm. These People, who are serious in doing the lord’s work and understand the vision and the dreams of the lord, will be taken up so that they will be spared from the suffering agony that the others will have to suffer. After the rapture period, it will be followed by the tribulation period, where the antichrist will rule over the earth for 7 years (*note: it’s GOD’s 7 long years..not literally 7 years..thus it may interpreted as 7 long decades/centuries) during this tribulation period, the beast will reign and his number is 666 (that is why the devil’s no is 6).“The beast forced everyone, small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive the mark on his right hand or on his forehead, so that no one could buy or sell unless he had the mark, which is the name of the beast or the number of his name.” revelation 13:17. There will come a time, when everyone would have a mark to symbolize that he or she belongs to the beast.

In fact, this is happening already. Researchers have found out that some forms of chips have been implanted into the bodies and brains of human beings, and they used that tiny little small chip to purchase goods. You may say it’s convenient, in fact, it’s a huge scientific achievement, BUT, if you think about it, you will know that the implantation of chips is a form of beast. There will come a time, when the chips will start to replace cash, money and even credit cards. Everyone will start to own it, just like the handphone craze in the recent years, and if you don’t possess the chip, you’re unable to buy or sell things, because the chip itself is of value. So, will you continue to trust the lord and stay firm in your faith, or will you crumble and succumb to temptation in order to survive? The love of most will grow cold during this period of time, but the spread of gospel will become more rampant and the no. of missionaries and believers of God will gradually increase and they will continue to spread the love of God to all non-believers. After the gospel has been preached to the end of the world, the lord will come, and this is known as the 2nd coming, when the lord comes to judge and to build his kingdom of God.

“There is no peace”. says my God, “for the wicked.” The beast and the antichrist followers will create more unrest and misery to the people. Peace and love no longer exist in the world, as people start to fall away from the lord and to support the antichrist. Therefore, let’s stay strong~ in the face of tribulation period and the EVIL beast.

2006-10-26T08:28:00.000-07:00

devotion of the day

25th oct
Isaiah 56 : “salvation for others”

“Maintain justice and do what is right, for my salvation is close at hand and my righteousness will soon be revealed.” During this modern world of unrest and distress, the most important thing would be to maintain justice and to do what is right. Do what is holy and righteousness, and pleasing to the lord. For salvation is here, and it is made available to everyone, so whoever who needs it can draw close to the lord and accept his invitation. The righteousness and holiness of the lord is what makes the lord pure and sacred, we need to be cleansed by the blood of Jesus Christ before we can build an intimate relationship with the lord.

“To the eunuchs who keep my Sabbaths, who choose what pleases me and hold fast to my covenant—I will give them an everlasting name that will not be cut off. And foreigners who bind themselves to the lord who serve him, I will bring to my holy mountain and give them joy in my house of prayer.” God will not neglect all the foreigners and those that have been oppressed. Those people who face persecution in their families and schools, the lord will not forsake them. But as he sees them staying strong in the faith and drawing nearer to the lord, he rewards them with large amounts of blessings and says that he is pleased and happy with their performance. And those who are in the minority groups who face serious oppression and persecution from their families and friends, WHEN they stay firm in their faith, not wavering in their spiritual path, the lord will eventually grant them an everlasting name where they will not be cut off from the kingdom of God. These people are those who persevered and press through till the end, never giving up even till the last minute. They are warriors of the light who are determined to win this battle; they have already claimed the victory of this battle. The oppressed, the desolate, the sick, the needy, the destitute, the lord will not despise. In fact, he will shower them with more blessings and opportunities. All these people just need to ask from the lord and he will give it to them.

“Come!” each one cries, “let me get wine! Let us drink our fill of beer! And 2mr will be like today, or even far better.” This group of people does not know that the 2nd coming is near, and that they still have the time to play and drink around. They are still enjoying life the way they think it should be, and that the 2nd coming is still far, and that the great commission to them is not a big deal. They could not see the urgency of the spread of the gospel, as their eyes are closed and their spiritual ears unable to hear. They do not understand the seriousness of the situation, that soon the beast\(anti-chris) will reign and the tribulation period will soon come. We’re gotta stay firm in our spiritual walk and develop a strong relationship with the lord. Walk right in the lord, and dedicate your lives to the almighty God. Die to yourself everydae! Live life the way God wants.

2006-10-24T07:35:00.001-07:00

YAYness. .

2dae feels like a LONG dae but a very enriching and fulfilling dae. . :)

1st. .i woke up reall early 2dae cuz i couldn't seriously couldn't sleep .:)..suffering from insomia nowadays..*sighs*

den..there was dance prac fer project FORa. . and i tot i was running late..cuz i left my hse at 10.50pm..when the dance prac starts at 11pm. . .so i was dashing all the way to TCT. .

and den i realised that i was NOT late..in fact i was one of the early birds. . there was only kelly and xiumin.(who always as usual is the earliest.. .i seriously dont' understand how she can always get on tym for all our meetings. ..)..and den kelly MA decided to reward us with gummy sweets for being early..*yeah*. .and then ants and mozzies started attacking her. . and she claims it's becuz she's veri sweeet. . hah..diao..

and we started singing sum camp song bout mozzies. .it was super cute. . i swear. only kelly can cum up with such diao song. . heh

den x-lyn.. yt..jazreel came for the dance prac..and just as we were officially gg to begin.. x-lyn realised that she din't bring the disc.(i want to hold your hand). . .and KELLY said that we had no choice but to go bk to get the disc. .

so we took a cab to x-lyn's hse.. and guess wad

kelly called us to ask us to cum bk. . .apparently..rach had that song in her hp..and thus,.they want us to rush bk..

so in the end ..we wasted a $4.20 cab ride. .

and x-lyn was quite upset. . cuz she spent 10 bucks on taxi-fare the entire dae..which was kinda unnecessary..as you could see the 10bucks can used for more useful stuff . .lyke shopping fer clothes and stuff. .

yeps..OH well,..nvm..x-lyn. .it's just 10 bucks.. you can earn it easily with your 50bucks weekly allowance.

YUPP..and in the end the dance prac was very successful..we finished the entire song liaos.. .we just need to refine our steps again. .and make sure that everyone's timing is perfect. :)

but the funny thing was that ..i kept laughing when xiumin and i pair up to do the shimmyshimmy thing.. (it's sum retro move when you;re gotta shake the oppo direction as ur partner does. )..and we've gotta stuck a flower in our mouth when we 're doing that..

and we used a pen during prac instead..

and it was very funny. .cuz the way we do the shimmyshimmy thing was veryy amusing..lyke it's very constipated or smthing. hah

and everytym i do that move..i've gotta remove the pen.cuz i'll end up laughing.. or else the pen just falls to the ground. . it's chao(1) amusing Lo.

den.. .there was this walking-to-the-side-looking-like-a-crab move. .and looked as if my shoulder was hyperventilating. .haha..whereas.. rach did it so naturally. .SEE..dancers will always be dancers. .it's an in-borne thing ..i guess.i'm just not talented with it ..lyke i trained so hard to do a split.. and till now..i can't do a 3/4 split.. it's just so depressing. .

den we went to vivo..it's crazy there.packed with ppl. .unable to breathe xia..lyke everywhere you turn .. there's a whole bunch of ppl. .and we were unable to eat our lunch..cuz long john's was full..mac's was full..yoshinoya was too ex.. and we had to go to hawker to eat in the end. .hah

diao LO..i tot vivo was supposed to be reall BIG..that it won't be crowded..but it ended up that ppl just loved to go to new places..that seems cool and diao. and everyone has to shop in a cramped..i've even see old ahma shopping in VALerie and topshop..SERIOUSLY

den,..me and x-lyn went to dhoby fer her sports carnival meeting. .and den x-lyn's phone was running out of battery.. so uhum..we had to use the powersource in the mrt.. and it was rather embarrasing. .cuz lyke we were sitting there and charging the phone. hah..

2006-10-24T07:35:00.000-07:00

2006-10-24T07:33:00.000-07:00

24th oct 2006
Isaiah 55: “invitation to the thirsty”

“Why spend money on what is not bread, and you labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.” Do not spend on worldly things that are worthless and eats up your soul. Extravagance and lavishness becomes a sin when you become too obsessed and addicted over it. Do not spend on unnecessary things, things that of your flesh and not the spirit. These become your desires, and results in us prioritize our worldly pleasures NO 1, rather than that of the lord. Therefore, spend wisely, think before you buy, do not buy things for the pleasure of the body, as this does not satisfy the soul. Do not seek after things that do not last, for things in the earth will not last forever and ever, it is not permanent and long-lasting. But rather, follow after the word of God and walk right with the lord in your life.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the lord.” God’s thoughts are definitely not our thoughts, his thoughts are pure and holy, and thus he wants us to catch his heartbeat so that we know and understand the special and plan and purpose in our lives. We may not understand God’s doings and ways in our lives but we know that it is for the good of one’s dream and destiny, and God has a special way of doing things, performing miracles we cannot see. He is like a potter, molding our lives but the potter always works quietly, and during the process the clay has to be pressed and baked in the oven, before it can be wonderfully created into a beautiful masterpiece. The heat of the oven, however hot it may be, may help to strengthen the clay to be hard and sturdy, strong and firm. Thus, the clay can be painted into different colors, and decorated into different products, to be sold as decorative items that can bless others. We are like the clay, we are molded by God, as he plants obstacles and problems in our lives so that we learn how to overcome these major Problems in life, we learn to be strong and independent, and to place out trust in the lord. We are not afraid of the HEAT in our lives, for we know that the potter is at work in our lives and would eventually paint our character to be of good, kind, loving and caring, so that we the clay can be a blessing to others.

“So is my word that goes out from my mouth: it will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire.” We will obey what the lord has commanded us to do. It will not remained unheard, and we will take action about it, going off to do what the lord has called us to do. We learn how to be brave and courageous, and getting out of our comfort zone to do things that are well beyond our ability, as we know that the lord has provided with the strength and might to accomplish those things that he has called us to do. The lord desires us to ASK and INVITE- non-christians to church and harvest events, in the hope for more salvations. He wants all people to know him, to accept as sovereign lord of their lives. His heartbeat for the people and the nations are very clear, he wants everyone and the whole world to know that he Is God, and for all to confess with their tongues that he is lord and who was and is to come. J

2006-10-23T08:46:00.000-07:00

i just realised my last post was super SAd.. and depressing..so i shall post a more cheerful and happy POST..

yuP.. .2dae i din't neo we were supposed to go discovery centre.. until QIu came over and told me that the post-exam activity for that day was to go for some guided tour in discovery centre. . .and I TOT that was ONLY for pri school kids..

i mean the last tym i went there was when i was in pri school..pri6. . and i couldn't believe was planning such a lame trip fer us..

BUT..yeah,..in the end it was not that bad..it fact it was quite FUN..

QT.. and i spend the whole bus trip taking goong PHOTOS>.hah..and we did the chae-kyoung..pose. . act-cute. .:)

and obviously..we also did the 10 act-cute poses. . OH>.qiu can send me the video..it was so DIAO..and with crazy SUJU fans like ah QIU(i dun't care.. i shall call you ah qiu from now ON)..we OBVIOUSLY had to take the fighting and ahchacha(is that how you spell) pose. .

and i had to admit.. it was quite cute LA>. we the lamers association PPL..haf potential to be act-cute babes..YEAHS.. .

and even YANNE>.started posing in front of the camera. . QIU.must send me..den i send to tianye.. .den she can proclaim her LOVE to him..ahah. . nvm..IF you wann to be more professional..we can do a special video of YANNE confessing her LOVE to green fields,. ..and i can GLADlY do a love song. .and QIu can play the guitar,..OR she can dance sum slow SUJu dance..cool right.hah

*hope you dun't kill me for this*..:)

OH..and the coolest part of it was the sky-diving video..it was sum adrenaline rush video..and explains how sum ppl love to take risks..cuz they have lesser MNO..(sum chem stuff that i can't seem to recall)..then there was few scenes where they filmed the divers jumping from the plane.. and it was so cool . .:)

and me and sopHH..were too hunGRY.. .so we kept saying the mountains looked like ice- truflles and choco cream cake..

hah..and i tot that leornada davinci's parachute looks lyke dumpling. . .HEH..too hungry MAH

my stomach was growling thruout the whole show. .

but the screen is really COOL!..so BIG..and my and sopphh was wondering if we watch goong.. it'll b much cooler..luke shin and yul will be in full-size. .:)

and val wanted to watch horror films. .OH nO..dun't..i will be scared out of my skin. .

i dun't even dare to watch horror shows on a normal tv-screen. . how can i watch horror films ON a BIG BIG screen where everything is multiplied several times. .

yeps..and i tuitioned my little cousin --chinese 2dae. .
:)

she was very cute.. :)..she kept laughing..and couldn't concentrate half the tym.. .and i was lyke painting my nails. while teaching her chi compre.haha..not a very good tuition teacher. .heh..

but she seemed to improve a lot in her chi..lyke all those difficult and really cheem chi idioms..she seemed to understand and get the hang of it..

so i guess i'm not a very *shi(1) *bai(4) tuition teacher after all..

so those who have siblings in pri skool..who desperately wanns tuition can look fer me..

i charge very LOW>.15 bucks..1/1/2 hrs.s.:)

2006-10-23T08:43:00.000-07:00

24th oct
Isaiah 54: “the future glory of zion”

“Sing o barren woman, you who never bore a child; burst into song, shout for joy, you who never in labor; because more are the children of the desolate woman than of her who was a husband.” Give thanks to the lord, for now the lord has given you the fruits of your labour, you see the harvest ripening and that more people, more friends, more loved ones coming to know the lord. Sometimes, we should not be upset to groan and moan over the our losses and failures in life, but rather we should thank God for the blessings he has given us. For ex, we may lose 1sheep along the way, but in the process gain 10 other sheep. Isn’t that a joy.?..a reward.?..

Therefore, do not look at your failures and what you have lost, but rather focused on what the lord has given you and make good full use of your skills and abilities to shine for God and bless others. “Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide, do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes” YES. Dream big for the LORD. Let’s expand our dream for the lord, so that as we fulfill our own personal dream, we can also do what the lord has told us to do.

“the lord will call you back as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit—a wide who married young, only to be rejected.” THIS strongly reminded me chae-kyoung in goong, who was not accustomed to the palace life, and who MARRIED YOUNG( at the age of 19) and only to be rejected by her friends, the society, her *supposedly* husband, she lost her freedom and she’s like a bird stuck in her cage. She no longer can live her life that she wants and has to conform to a future planned for her. She can no longer dream, she has to be stuck in the palace with the status of her being a crown princess, and beside her is the arrogant crown prince who likes her, but did not know how to express his love to her. BUT, there has to be a solution, and chae-kyoung decides to divorce with the crown prince to end her horrible fate and destiny. I think it’s the same with our spiritual walk with God, we thought we would enjoy the world outside, that we can do things the way we like, and would not have to care what the lord wants to do in our life. When we actually live a LIFE we want, we find out that life becomes worse than it’s supposed to be. We thought we would be in control of our lives once we decide to be masters of our life, but we realize that’s not the case, for lives are already in the hands of society and the devil. We are again bird caged up, legs binded up, not being able to fly in the sky freely. We turn back to God and seek forgiveness so that we can start anew again. With God leading us, we no longer feel lost anymore, we now are able to walk right with God and have a sense of direction to what we want to do in our lives. Most imptly, we are more confident of our own personal destiny and the heartbeat of God in each and every of our lives.

2006-10-21T08:25:00.000-07:00

i can't tell you how upset i am now. . .

i'm just super SAD and depressed.. .

thruout the whole bus trip. .i was just staring into space and stoning. .

how can such thing happen . .i've beginning to feel tat the world is such an unfair PLACE..

hmmm..recently there's this sudden upsurge of death of my loved ones. .

1st..it was kirsten's dad. . i was initially quite shocked to find out that kirst's dad passed away . .and it was only this year that i knew about it. . she kept it a long tym. . .and i only knew it from her sis.. .so i din't managed to attend his wake. .

i was quite upset with the fact that kirst.didn't tell me.. and in particular the whole cell such an impt thing. . .i mean YEPS..IT'S SO IMPT. . HOW COME YOU DIN'T BOTHER TO TELL US. . WHATEVER. .THE REASON IS. .WE ARE STILL YOUR SPIRITUAL FAMILY. .WE STILL LOVE YOU AND EVERYTHING. .WE CARE FER U..and most imptly. . i wanna at least bade farewell to your dad..

and if you have a chance to read this blogpost. .I JUST WANNA TELL YOU . .THAT THE CELL IS ALWAYS BE YOUR SIDE. . AND IF YOU HAVE ANY PERSONAL STUFFS OR PROBLEMS.. YOU CAN ALWAYS TURN TO US. . :)

2nd. .

HMM.. .yupp..the death note..struck my mom. .to tell ya the truth. . i was very very shocked. . that my mom just left lyke that. . i've never knew that she was going to leave so soon. . i was not prepared at all . GOd din't give any warning. . .it was only 1 week b4 she complained of stomach-cramps..and dizziness. . and of serious breathlessness..

she admitted to hospital. .ON..the family nite rehearsal dae. . i rmbred so clearly..cuz the last tym we had a proper conv.. .was when i asked her how to use the lipgloss that she bought fer me a few daes again. . she was teaching me how to make-up and i can still rmbr vividly. . the scene,..it's lyke a memory forever ethched in my mind. .

and the next dae. .she was admitted to hospital cuz she was feeeling very tired and unwell..

she did a ct scan and found out that her cancer had spread to the 4 th stage. .in the begininng, my siblings and I weren't much affected by the results.. we thought that she can survive the ordeal just like that. .but it seemed like now. .the lord was seriously going to take her back..

when i visited her in the hospital..it was racial harmony dae. . i see her lying on the hospital bed..looking so lifeless and pale. . she spoke with much difficulty. . saying that we've had to work hard and listen to the elders. .what i only rmbred was that the whole family cried and cried. .

it was the only tym that i cried loudly and in front of her. . i couldn't help it. .it was the 1st tym that i saw my mother looking so helpless and desperate.. .

and the next visits to the hospital..i just chatted with my mom..talked and talked..when she was too tired to talk..i just sit there looking at her. . and she just sat looking at us. . .touching our faces.s.probably trying to rmbr how we look lyke. . she LOOKED really sad. .and desperate. .everytym we visit her. . i 'll keep praying that the lord will not take her away. .

on the dae that passed away. .my bro..me.. my dad and aunty. .with my maid(aunite cita)..went to the hospital..

this tym..my mom's breathing was very heavy. .and we were very worried..cuz the situation didn't look very cheerful//and flame was coming out of her mouth more frequently than ever.

suddenly/.the bloody flame just gushing out and out. .we actually wanted to take our leave at 10.30..but we stayed on to help her clear out the mess..

it was just then..that her breathing stopped. . the machine stopped beeping for a moment. . and i panicked..literally. .

my aunty..looked very calm..and told us perhaps that she had already gone up with the lord.. i was momentarily shocked. .

how could this happen..after long hours of desperate prayer..why had this happen..i hadn't o much fer my mom at ALL..in fact the last daes iin earth..i had angered. her.. stressed her out,..cuz i myself was very stressed with schoolwork and choir perf. .and den i coudlnt' sleep at nite. . felt lyke i was gg crazy..keep complaining to her. . stressing her at nite..esp when in couldn't sleep . .

den i felt i din't do much to make her feel happier on earth,. .

for a moment . i felt so lost.. that my world had just collapsed. .

after a few daes..i tot a lot .and realised that perhaps.. that i should remain strong and to continue to press on in life.. esp in studies.. and do her proud..cuz that's wad mom wanted as her last wish..fer us to do well in studies and obtained outstanding results fer her..most imptly.she wanted me to continue to remain in IP..so that i won't have to transfer to o'level track.

YUPPP>.and that was why i studied really hard fer EOYS>.my mom is my main motivation..

and therefore i wann to work extra hard fer her..

yeps..my mom wil always live in my heart..she will..

:)

even tho..she obviously will not be able to read this POSt..

but i just wann her to neo that i really LOVE HER>
yeps..

i din't get a chance to say that..even during her last daes/

and i also want to HUG her. .

hmm.,.reminds me of cajing when she wanted to hug shin..except that she managed to HUG him..hais.

3rd..

(why do i seem to be posting obituries.??,hah)

chrislyn's cousin..

from wad i heard from x/lyn..he wasn't a christian when he passed away..and i coudl telel that chrislyn was really upset. . .i MEAN tym is running OUT.. .and that we have no tym left. .

our loved ones are leaving us. .the gospel has to be spread. . the word of God has to be spread. .so that the love of God can be spread to those who are desperate of light admist the darkness and disaster.s.

4)

aunna's dad..

actually nxt week is aunna's BD./. and the news of Aunna's dad passing away 2dae.. was a big shock to us.. it's lyke the devil attacking us..bcuz we were busy preparing aunna's bd party..and perf.. and it's lyke her dad's death came so untimely. .WHY..it's just so ironic.,.life it is..

sometimes..death is always a reminder to treasure our loved ones..and to rmbr to keep doing Gods' work..because it seems so much more impt and urgent...

:)

2006-10-21T08:22:00.000-07:00

21st Oct
Isaiah 53 : “the suffering and glory of the servant”

This passage talks about the coming of the messiah—Jesus Christ. The lord says that he has “no beauty and majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.” “he has despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, familiar with suffering.” When jesus lived on earth as man, he was just an ordinary MAN that was always despised and rejected by all men because he claims to be the messiah- the son of God to save all people. “but he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.” The son of man had to suffer a long torturous death by lying on the cross, so that he can save us from all our sins and past hurts. BY his wounds on his hands and feet, we are set free and healed from all SINS and barriers that stop us from coming to the lord.

“We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the lord has laid iniquity of us all.” Every time we turn away from the lord, the lord tries very hard to grab your attention and to pull you to his side again. That is why when some people backslide away from the lord, there was always friends and family around that person to pray for that person and encourage that person to draw near back to the lord again. God desperately wants us to build an intimate and strong relationship with him so that we realign our hearts to his will and do things according to his plan great commission. However, when we are lost and distant away from the lord, we are like a group of blur sheep who have lost their way from the shepherd, we are lost in the mountains, and we desperately need the shepherd to guide us back to the FOLD. We once again come in front of the altar to cleanse our sins, so that we can come back to the lord again.

When I heard that Aunna’a dad had just passed away, I was very upset and rather shocked. It came too sudden—just like my mom’s death, except that was worse cuz I witness the death altogether. It was very saddening. I heard my heart break and kept asking the lord. . why..why. . why do there seem too be so many deaths. . from Kirsten’s dad. . .x-lyn’s cousin. .my mom..aunna’s dad. . it seems that the DEATH NOTE(haha..who watched deathnote.??)..is aimed at the Christians. I feel that the devil is trying to work in our lives. To pull us strongly away from the lord. I DON’T WANT TO BE PULLED AWAY. I WILL BE STRONG AND STAY CLOSE TO THE LORD. THE DEVIL CAN DO WHATEVER HE WANNS.. .BUT WE THE CHRISTIANS ARE GONNA STAY STRONG. . AND CONTINUE TO REMAIN STRONG IN OUR FAITH AND SPIRIT. J

2006-10-21T08:19:00.000-07:00

19th Oct
Isaiah 50 “Israel’s sin and the servant’s obedience”

“Because of your sins you were sold; because of your transgressions your mother was sent away. When I came, why was there no one? When I called, why was there no one to answer?” sometimes, we pay a high price for all our sins. Our sins do have a great negative impact on our lives, whether you like it or not. Our sins are stained by guilt and blood, only Jesus’ blood can set us free from our sin-ridden life. In the past, sacrifices had to be made because they had to use “animal blood” to redeem their sins. BUT now, Jesus has already died on the cross to set us free from all our sins, and now we are saved by the blood of Jesus. We are sinners saved by grace, and we can draw nearer to the lord as our sins and already cleansed by Jesus- the son of God.

“When I came, why was there no one? When I called, why was there no one to answer?” When God called out to us, we ignore and DAO him. When he called us to do something, we turned his back against him and refused to listen to his orders. The lord is being ignored, despised and looked down upon. The people of the lord disobeyed him and insisted on going their own ways. When the lord needs us to accomplish great things for him, we walk away, refusing to do what the lord has called us to do.

“Let him who walks in the dark, which has no light, trust in the name of the lord and rely on his God.” let us turn away from all that is undesirable, and unpleasing to the lord, and turn to righteousness—the lord. Walk right with God and ensure that your spiritual life is HOLY and PURE unto the lord, that we are not to sin against the lord.

Normally, we like to choose the easier path to go to, to choose to bow down to sin. We think that by following our own desires and pleasures, no one can stop us. But, we know that it is not right and that the lord knows everything that we’re doing. He tried all ways to stop us from committing the sin, but we being the weak and powerless, we just had to succumb to temptation.

Finally, we come back to the lord to ask for forgiveness, we know that we’ve done wrong as we have do things that are not pleasing to the lord. It may be a small teeny weensy sin that you have committed, but a small sin is like a black dot in a big white cloth. The small black dot has dirtied and spoilt the big white cloth no matter how big the dot is. The white cloth is no longer PURELY white and it’s therefore considered a dirty and SPOILT cloth. This is the case with sin, whereby no matter who big or small your sins are, it’s still a sin. You can never change the fact that you have committed a sin! It’s already recorded in the book of JUSTICE. We just know that once we sinned against the lord, we’ve got to kneel in front of the lord to ask for forgiveness so that the blood of Jesus can once again cleansed our sins, and that we can be renewed with a new surge of grace and mercy once more.

2006-10-18T07:50:00.000-07:00

we're got 4th!

4th placing for volleyball!!!

the platelets rawk.. we can clot blood!

no viruses can attack us. !

ahahhah..ive becoming veryy lame.. (or should i say corny. . .). .:)). .yupp. .2dae was an exciting DAY.. . .it was the inter-class volleyball comp.. .and we the platelets did veryy well l..:)yeahyeah

at 1st we were doing veryy welLL.. and ant PLUS we the 309 cheerleaders were cheering the crazy. . .we were screaming and yelling like MAD>. .the whole tennis court were filled with our screams . .(DON'T ASK ME WHY WE WERE PLAYING VOLELYBALL MATCH IN THE TENNOS COURT. . AND NO..THEY DIN'T USE THE TENNIS NET AS THE VOLLEYBALL NET. . I WAS KINDA HOPING THAT THEY COULD USE. IT..but they din't....*hopes were dashed*)..anw.. back to the loud cheering and screaming. . .it sort of did much help . .cuz we won !!!yeps..6 matched in a row. . it boosted the morale of the whole team. .even tho i had to agree that some of the classes were looking quite pissed and our opponents were quite intimidated by US>>>we so kowaii LO....

den i was verii happie and hyper. .. . cuz our class became verii united as a whole. . .and we were all so enthu the whole dae. . .we tried doing kallang wave... while cheering fer them.. .diao..///

BUT it did amused ms chang. . i saw her laughing like crazy..:)

and den we did the trigo cheer. . .cuz someone suggested that once 3/9 scored 3 goals... den we do the trigo cheer which goes like that . .

3/9 GO! 3/9 GO! 3/9 GO!

3/9 GO GO GO!

3/9 loves trigo..

it was ultra lame. . but you get my point rite. . it was still quite fun la..

AND DEN ANTHEA STARTED THIS WEIRD CHEER WHICH WAS TO DIAO THE OTHER GROUPS WHEN THEIR BALL GOES UNDER THE NET... .

it's to the tune to the little mermaid's under the sea

so it's just

under the net
under the net
it's too bad. it's too..under the net

and it was super funny. .cuz it was diao

anw.. to keep the long story short. . the whole volleyball comp was so fun and interesting. . .and den in the end we played against 3/12. . and we lost. . so we GOT a 4h placing . .

BUT NVM.. .

WE ARE ALREADY CHAMPIONS !! CUZ THIS VOLLEYBALL COMP HELPED US TO BOND and unite. .

SO WE ARE THE REAL CHAMPIONS.. .BECAUSE IT ONLY EARNED US A 4TH PLACING BUT FRIENDSHIPS AND BONDS.:)

AND PLUS WE WONT HE MOST PRIZES . .THE BEST SUPPORTING AND FAIR CLASS. .4TH PLACING AND BEST TEAM MANAGER (YEAHS.. THANKS ..JESSIE. . YOU RAWK. . PROVIDING US WITH BANANAS AND ALL ..:).. .YEAH..BABE.. .:))

Ok..I'M OFFICIALLY CRAZY..HAH

yeps..found really nice pics of yoon eun hye. .

she looks really elegant and classy in this pic. .:)

aHHH..korean gals are JUST plain cute. . .:)..kawaii i.

kkaaes.. . as usual the blogger image thing is taking verii slow

signing off///__at myhse_feeling really TIRED after the volleyball match..

2006-10-18T07:46:00.000-07:00

daily devotion of the day

18th Oct
Isaiah 49: “the servant of the lord” and “restoration of Israel”

“He said to me, “you are my servant, Israel, in whom I display my splendor.” But I said, “I have labored to no purpose; I have spent my strength in vain and in nothing. Yet what is due me is in the lord’s hand, and my reward is with my God.” sometimes, we feel that there is no meaning to life, that life to us is meaningless. We don’t create much significant difference to the world, our existence is purely useless. We often label ourselves as good-for-nothings, people that create much trouble and do nothing to help make the world a better place. in life, whenever I obeyed the lord in certain areas in life, for example getting a rid of a particular habit and walking right of the lord, sometimes even listening to his commands and doing it by calling a non-Christian friend to build relationship and perhaps share the gospel. BUT, most of the times, whenever I accomplished what he asked, there’s always no BIG significant change happening, sometimes things even happen in the opposite way. We get frustrated, we get angry, we don’t know what is going. I doubt that I’m actually obeying what the lord has called me to do, maybe I’m just hearing things in my head, or maybe I heard the instructions of the lord wrongly.

But the lord wants to reaffirm you that what you have been doing is pleasing to the lord, he is happy that the fact that we obeys him and accomplished what he commanded us to do. Yet, however, the things that you do take time to create its effect and impact on others, it’s not an immediate effect and thus needs time to evolve and take place. Thus, do not be upset and discouraged, for the lord has seen what you have done and is pleased with it. He will eventually reward you with blessings that will flow through your descendants. Well, other times, when you did obey the lord, nothing takes place, even it becomes worse, this could be the fact that the time is not ripe, and that God wants to mould you and transform your character, or it could be a test of the lord to see if you ‘re a faithful servant of the lord.

“yes, captives will be taken from warriors, and plunder retrieved from the fierce; I will contend with those who contend with you, and your children I will save. I will make your oppressors eat their own flesh, and they will be drunk on their own blood, as with wine.

“That all mankind will know that I, the lord, am your savior, your redeemer, the mighty one of Jacob.”

Yes, indeed the lord will save us from all our enemies, they will not dare to attack us, because the lord is with us. He leads us to victory, therefore we can emerged as strong victors! The enemies will be gotten rid of, and the lord will be known to all for he has saved us and bring us out of misery and despair. HOo-ray.the lord has rescued us from all fears and troubles, he reigns and lives.

yeahs: //3 cheers for GOD

yip yip hooray!!

yip yip hooray!!

yip yip hooray!!

:)

2006-10-17T07:45:00.000-07:00

devotion of the day

17th oct
Isaiah 48 : “stubborn Israel”

The Israelites were as usual, very stubborn people whose “sinews of neck were iron, your forehead was bronze.” They refused to listen to the lord, and relied heavily on their so-called idols. The israelities even gave the highest glory and praise to their idols, saying that they deserve all praise and declaring that “my idols did them; my wooden image and metal god ordained them.” But the truth is, all glory belongs to the lord who has done everything for Israel, but the israelities are not yet awakened, their hearts are still as hard as a metal stone. They haven’t realized the big mistakes they have commited. They are still living in self-denial, in a dream that seems so beautiful that they refused to wake up. They are living in the devil’s traps of deception, they have not been called back into reality to know and understand the truth of the lord.

“From now on I will tell you of new things, of hidden things unknown to you. They are created now, and not long ago; you have not heard of them before today.” This sentence vaguely reminds me of the eoys china programme briefing 2dae at LT2, *(wahaha..i even rembr the location ///diao).. Catherine was talking something about living in three different worlds, whether we want a world that we are in total control, absolute control of. We can do things whatever we want, and there are no restrictions whatsoever, nobody can stop you from doing what you like. You can chase after your dreams and do what you really like. The 2nd world is whereby you live in a very square and fixed world, everything is already very well-planned for you. it’s like walking along a corridor, you just have to open the rooms lined up along these corridors and live you life that has already been planned. You will not be able to predict the future, but you somehow or rather know what its going to be like, however, you are unable to change the future we have no power to change the future. We are powerless and weak; we can only wait for the future to arrive. The 3rd world is a confusing world, you live in a timeless world where good chances and opportunities await you. you are able to enjoy all the benefits and privileges of the opportunities that fall your way, you will be able to see your vision clearly, and thus can carefully plan and map up the next step of life. the 3rd world is a world full of surprises and mystery, there’s always something going on.

Actually, for me, I want a bit of everything from each world, I want to have a little control in my life. because I know that the lord has total and absolute control over my life, so I am at ease and thus feels safe and secure for my future and destiny lies in the hands of my creator and maker. I have control over my life, because I know that the lord is in full control of my life. J but I don’t want to have too much control over my life that I start making decisions for myself, and doing things that I LIKE<> I want to do things that God likes and God wants, things that will help fulfill my personal dream and destiny, things that will help build God’s kingdom. I do not want to be a selfish git who only cares about satisfying my own pleasures doing things my own way. I want to be of much contribution to the great commission and to be a star and blessing to others. I also want my life to be well—planned, but I don’t want it to be so well-planned that I ended up knowing my whole entire future. Cuz in that way, I won’t be enjoying my life anymore. It will not be full of surprises. I want God to tell me of new things, new stuffs, new fun prophesies so that I’m able to enjoy life to the fullest. i want him to reveal deep unknown secrets not known to anyone at all, to be called to do the God’s work, and once you achieved it, it feels so great. I feels so accomplished to be called the daughter of the light, serving him whole-heartedly.

AND, obviously I also want to live in the 3rd world, where they are so many opportunities and chances for me to enjoy. The visions shows to us will let have a chance to carefully planned our lives so that we enjoy life to the fullest, to the MAX>

YEAHS..AND IN THE 3RD WORLD, God will bless us with so many blessings and opportunities. We can shine for God. yeah..let’s share our blessings.!

2006-10-17T07:12:00.000-07:00

yeah..yeah!!

Charis is happy 2dae!!

she finally passed her HIST..OK..yarla..i din't get my 80 for hist.. .i mean it's rather impossible considering that only one person in our class got >80. . .yupp p ..so i should be happy and content with my results. . .haha

i got 68..yeah..for hist>>>this is my 1st tym this yr getting a b3 for hist. . .hoooray. . .charis..万岁..charis..万岁!!..haha..watch too much goong liaos. . .

yeps..so exciting . . 2mr qiu is lending me gong. . .:)..lalala. . i 've finally can watch goong at a faster speed. . .(like a bullet-train)..not like channel U..like a slow-moving tortoise. . .DIAO

i realised after watching goong. . i've becoming verii lame. . .

haha.. . .there was this part where caijing kept doing the twist sign. . so that the reporters can take her pic. .and she was veriyy cute. . .den SHIN put his arms around her. . saying this is very 幼稚. . .cuz they actually had this eng translation . . where the eng subtitles goes "this is very lame" . . .and it was verii farnie. . .diao lo///

hahas. . i was laughing when chen si told me. . .den we keep doing the act cute twist pose. . .

it was pretty dumb. . .:0

OHH..i forgot to mention my IH results. .. .i got a 64. . amazing rite,.?..i was thinking that i failed. . .and i was so shocked when i saw my paper that i nearly fainted.. it was so amusing cuz i tot i wrote crap .. . .and then i got a 17/25 for the 3rd quest. . .hahas.. 1st tym in this yr again that i got so high for an IH essay

yeahs..charis you are a record-breaker. . .i realised i broke so many records during the exam. . .like for hist and ih.. .i have never scored so high this yr b4.. . and likewise for bio ..chem and math. . i have never scored that low b4. ..hais

OH..and i realised i have to take the math supplemtary exam. . .haiyo. . .felt so depressed all of a sudden. . why do i have to remind myself that i failed my math.. . haishais. .*signs**

OK LO. . .so there was this china briefing in the afternoon 2dae. . and they were talking about this interesting 创意课程that sounds verii fun.

they will bring us to sight-see and play games. .sounds cool >>>i seriously can't wait fer the china trip . ..:)..yeahs..and i went to jiaoda website and saw what our seniors did last yr when they went to jiaoda..they actually had shooting lessons. . .i tink CYN thia will be interested.ahah

and they paint those really nice masks,. . .aHHH>. i wanna fly there immediately . .and i heard that there's lotsa good stuff shopping in CHINA> . .

BUT obviously if you think about it. . i'd rather go to KOREA instead. . and find my jang nara. .haha

and for those peeps who doesn't know who jang nara look like..

here's a pic of her:

isn't she cute!

kkaes. la..let me do a brief introduction of her. .

this cute pretty babe is a korean singer who acted in 红豆女之恋 and 开朗少女成功记...and i'm hoping to catch her刁蛮公主..but im currently broke..no $ to buy the VCD..hais

and they actually intially asked her to act in goong. . but obviously . .she has a fully schedule and is fully-booked. so wel l.. they asked li en hui instead. . yupp,..but i must say//li en hui is equally cute LA>

so on par jang nara on par with li en hui,,

hooray to all the cutie pies. .

great la,..2mr is the interclass-volleybal comp. . .haiyo..i'm verii scared i can't play LEH..knowing very well that i'm going to screw up the game. . .

haha

shall go and get my beauty sleep. . so 2mr i will have enough energy to play a good game. .YEA

signing off///_10.38_at my hse..trying to learn to sing perhaps love. :). . in korean. .it's hard xia. .

2006-10-16T07:44:00.000-07:00

found really GOOD pics for my new blog skin..

presenting to yOu the JApanese curry. .

except this looks much betta than the food sold at out canteen. .haha ..

it looks NICE rite. . .sopHH..haha..you neo wad to do .. JUST use your perfect adobe skills. :)

AHH..it's taking reall slow for the next image to come UP>>>>
so slow xia.. how cum blogspot so slow..like tortoise leh.. turtle.. :(

aiyah..dont' care liaos..i'm not waiting fer the blogger post image . . .it's taking a long long tym.

shall go and hibernate zzzz!

2006-10-16T07:26:00.000-07:00

devotion of the day

16th oct
Isaiah 47: “ the fall of Babylon ”

“The virgin daughter of Babylon, sit on the ground without a throne, daughter of Babylonians. No more will you be called delicate and tender.” Babylon will soon fall down, as disasters and calamities fall upon them. Because they have trusted the evil one, their “nakedness will be exposed and your shame uncovered.”

God says that they have relied on spells and sorceries to fight for power, so that they will continue forever—the eternal queen. But the lord says not anymore, because he has caused disasters and calamities to fall upon them, so that no matter how much they struggle, how much they retaliate, that they will not be able to defend themselves from the wrath of the lord.

The lord has been angry with the Israelites, and has handed them into the hands of the daughter of Babylon, however she has showed them no mercy. Even on the aged and needy, you laid a very heavy yoke on them, disabling and preventing them from enjoying their lives. These people lived in constant terror and suffering. God is angry as the queen did not do what he had ordered her to do.

“You have trusted in your wickedness and have said NO ONE SEES ME.” “your wisdom and knowledge has mislead you when you say to yourself ‘I am, and there is none besides you.” the queen of Babylon thought that the only way to survive is to use scheme and plots to achieve what she wanted. She used very extreme wicked means, she looked for sorceries and relied on all the potent spells, the astrologers for the study of the stars and future and the fortune-tellers to help her with the management of the whole nation. BUT, she knew, this was not the right way to get what she wants, she has disobeyed the lord and the lord is very displeased with her.

I am forcibly reminded of the show that I’ve just watched—goong. .haha..MY BLOGSKIN..kkaes..anyways. . .

When I read this passage, it reminded me of the Politics in the palace, where 2 brothers are fighting over the heir to the throne. Countess (what’s her name.. xi mi tai chi.?) and prince yi cheng jun wanted to regain their status in the palace and wanted to get back what they have lost originally, they used many underhand methods and means to achieve what they wanted. YES, they were fighting for a right reason, it can be justified for their actions, but is what they are doing right.?..is it against their conscience, what they are fighting for, the fame, the status or merely because they did not want to be despised and look down because they have LOST all they have initially had.

But what is REAL in the show is that, in life, we’re often like the countess and LI YUL.. .OK..i have to admit even thO he’s super shUAI..what he’s doing in the show is SO NOT right. . .kkaes. .we often neglect the shaking conscience that we are doing the wrong thing, we try to give us various excuses and tries to justify ourselves with the sinful and not-so-right things that we do.

BUT that’s totally not right at ALL>

And we know that. . .but its obviously human nature for people to do the way they think its right. . .

BUT IT”S NOT right.. .we’ve gotta do the GODly way..the way God wants us to DO!

Let’s walk right with the lord and give up on all OWN Pleasures and satisfaction. Die to your self and take up your cross daily.

2006-10-16T06:40:00.000-07:00

depressed

SAD

ARGH!!!!!

2dae is a bad bad dae.. .shouldn't have gone back to school 2dae!!,. . i din't want to get back my math, chem, and bio results at ALL..it's just plain depressing, , ,i know. . i can never be promoted to sec 3..and i DON"T WANT..DON'T WANT...DON'T WANT. . to transfer to O'levels. . .

i mean i expected my math to score very very low..seeing that i left many answers BLANK> BUT MY bio..?????..how cum it's so terrible.. .how come i flunk that exam.. its 40% lehs.s.....and i seriously don't want to visit ST again.. . .argh..argh, , ,i don't want to discuss with her on how to tranfer to o'level track...

even tho i seriously dislike and am against the school's IP system . .but it doesn't mean that i prefer the o'level track even MORE> . . .

and i can't survive IN IP>>i tink i'll die greater in o'level track..someone save me..!

i 'm really praying hard and crossing my fingers tight that my HiST and IH paper will be better. .IF i can get an 80 for hist and IH> . .i will be SUPER happy, ,. .and gladly jump off the clocktower. . .haha..but obviously it seems impossible. . .

people like yanne will find it extremely chicken-feet. .but ppl like me will find that passing my hist exam is as hard as passing my PE test. .

o.. OK..how lehs. . .i really don't want to transfer. . .to O"level. track..i'd rather tranfer school. ..but my dad says CANNOT. . .why..why

THIS WORLD IS SO UNFAIR.. . .

IT REALLY. IS

I DUN'T WANT. TO GO O'LEVEL TRACK

I'VE BECOMING VERII WHINY.. .AFTER I FOUND OUT THAT MY AVERAGE FER EOYS IS GG TO BE VERII LOW. . .HOW..?

this is so saddening LO..

i have No mood to go to shanghai . .

OH dear.. . we haven't rehearse our dance. . and performance yet. .

hEE.. .so many things left undone..

i realised i have many many things to DO

1: tidy up my messy room. .after all the studying during eoys period.. .my room is officially DIRTY..and looking much like a pigsty. . i have all my BIO stuff on the table. . .(which shows that i study verii hard fer BIO>.how can i do badly fer it. . .how can i flunk IT????)

2. go fer a shopping spree..i'm planning to BUY more long-sleeved shirts and jeans. . fer my shanghai TRIp..and also beanies.. .so i can wear different beanies everydae. .:).. .

hahas.. i'm even considering buying hEEL.s. .HIGH.heels. .but i doubt can walk in IT. . i can't even balance myself in the bus in my flat platforms. . how can i even stand properly IN heels. .

but it's still fun wearing heels.. .for short ppl like me. . .it CAN make me feel tall in HEELS>yEAHS

3. watch finish the whole of PRIncess hours. . i'm dying to watch finish PRINCESS hours. . but i'm like BROKE.. .i can 't afford the 24.90 princess hours. . .HMM. .QIU.. u neo what to do HORS>. .lend ME>. haha.

and at the rate channel U is showing princess hours. . it'll be 1 year later b4 they finish airing the show. . it's so sad. .everytym there's a commercial . . and i get really pissed off . .like they always show the commercial at the exciting moments.

haha

4. continue my open cell __i wanna continue,. ,. .but it seems that the enthusiasm level has gone down . .and it's really difficult to meet up with hannie and the 3/8 peeps. . .it's difficult . .BUT i must persevere. .

yeahyeah..the school will be saved fer GOD

5. practise harder fer math & chem. . .i don't wann to disappoint mrs wong and my chem tuition teacher. . .they really helped me a lot in my studies this yR.. . i must jia yous,. .and work hard fer them . . .yeahs. .so NXT year. .hopefully. .and BY sum magical luck .. .when NAH is not teaching us. . i shall get an A1 for chem and math. . .

yeps.. .

haha.. ci qiong liaos. . .running out of things to say lEHs./

oHHHH./.and for those who haven't watch GOONG..go and watch./ . .haven't you seen my beautiful blogskin to neo how wonderful that show IS>>>.go and watch!!

signing off__16thoct_10.12_MY HSE . .in foul mood seeing that i have to transfer to o'levels. .hais.. .i'll miss 309. . .

2006-10-15T07:41:00.000-07:00

15th oct

Matthew 25 : 1 – 13 / rev Melvyn mak / be alert ! –what if there is no tomorrow ?

We need to know what to do in the worst-case scenario. We need a worst-case survival GUIDEBOOK--- from the Lord.

How can we survive the 2nd coming?

Ø Break the spirit of presumption and procrastination

Sin of presumption:
We are often like the 5 foolish virgins in the story of Matthew 25, we often presume that the bridegroom will open the door for us to join the wedding banquet. We PRESUME that the lord is a kind, merciful, and loving lord who will eventually open the door during the 2nd coming, to allow us to enter into the kingdom of heaven. We often take the grace of GOD for granted, thinking that the lord will open his hands wide open to embrace us during the 2nd coming, the 2nd coming of the lord is when the lord would come to judge, thus, the door will be shut tightly. Only those who have come prepared, and have their “extra oil jugs” with them, will be able to light their lamps. The lamps represent their spiritual walk with the lord, as the lamps are fully lit, the bridegroom would be able to recognize them and welcome them to the wedding banquet. Those foolish virgins presumes that they can share the oil with the wise virgins, however, they forgotten that the oil cannot be shared as it is only enough for the wise virgins. Likewise, everyone has a different relationship with the lord; we can’t share our spiritual walk with others. We cannot be saved because our friends are saved. We alone have to be making a choice to be saved. We want to draw closer to the lord and each has to build an intimate relationship with the lord.

The doors of grace are widely open now, would you accept the invitation of God to enter into the gates of heaven. Do not wait until the gates of heaven has been closed during the 2nd coming, you will regret that you have never made the decision.

Sin of procrastination:
Don’t procrastinate.. ..don’t delay! We keep procrastinating, thinking that there is always time for us to serve the lord. Yupp..like for me.. I’ll keep procrastinate.. .about dance. . .i know that God has always valled me back to join the dance team..but there are always reasons that prevent me from joining dance. . .and I keep delaying and procrastinating..thinking there’s always time left, reassuring myself that once studies is back on track.. I’ll serve the lord. BUT..now I know that there is no time left!..i want to live my life like there’s no tomorrow. I want to be called the daughter of light, and continue to shine for God and bless others that are around me. The end is near, it is right at the door, there is no more time left. As the lord says “the generation will not pass away until the fig tree is alive.” There has been an acceleration of disasters and unrest during this ten years, it is twice more that what has happened in the past 100 years. We know that the end is near, and we have to stop procrastinating and do what the lord has told us to do. We will not be like the foolish servant who slacks off and plays around when his master is out. For when the master returns w/o at an hour the servant is unaware of, the servant will be driven out of the house and will join the hypocrites where they will weep and gnash their teeth. In other words, they will be drove to hell.

Ø Build the spirit of perseverance

Let us persevere and finish the job that the lord has given each and everyone of us. We will not be the Israelites who did not finish their jobs when they did not destroyed their enemies completely, and took back many of the enemies’ treasures as they were smitten and greedy over their possessions and their wealthy fortune. The oil that the virgins each carry is the Holy Spirit, we’ve got to always be filled with the Holy Spirit. Everyday, let’s renew ourselves with the Holy Spirit and humble ourselves in the foot of cross, getting a new revelation of the cross. Let us constantly be reminded of the love of God as he sent his only begotten son, Jesus Christ to die for his sins.

Ø Be sure of God’s presence in you

Isn’t it frightening/scary/terrifying/alarming when the day of the 2nd coming, and the lord says he doesn’t KNOW YOU. I would be extremely frightened and afraid, if God says he don’t know me and doesn’t let me pass through the gates of heaven, it means that I cannot be called daughters and sons of the living God. everyone must have a personal relationship with the lord, let’s draw closer to the lord and realign our lives and hearts to God’s will.

LET’S long for his coming, and desire that he will come and bring us back!

2006-10-15T07:39:00.000-07:00

i'm too tired to POST anythin!

2006-10-14T08:14:00.000-07:00

14th Oct

Isaiah 46 : Gods of Babylon

YES.. ..God has declared victory over the Gods Babylon, ‘these idols are borne by beasts of burden.’ They increase the number of burdens and worries in your life, making your life more difficult. ‘the images that are carried about are burdensome, a burden for the weary.’ Gods of Babylon are not doing to lessen the pain and suffering of the people, in fact, it’s creating more destruction and damage to their lives, making them living in a world of misery and trouble. I’ve just watched this interesting news on Tv just now, that Taiwan actually has a 土地公bank..where they actually loan people a sum of money. These people could actually lend at most 600 bucks(most probably 台币).. ..and it was really so amusing.. and I find it really ridiculous, that they portray 土地公 as some charitable rich businessmen who is willing to donate money for a good cause. Their mentality of a God is one who can save them from all their problems, be it financial, emotional..or even spiritual loss. And most of these people don’t even bother to return their sum of money, and thus there is a this long list of people who have owed 土地公 money. . .. and I found it extremely funny. . .cuz it’s like you owe your GOD money. . .that kinda thing.. .is really so amusing. . .and the 土地公bank actually gained a profit.. .cuz there were a couple of people who actually wanted to thank 土地公for helping them to tide over their problems and difficulties, so that they actually returned more than what they had borrowed.

I find it really sad that these people did not chance to really know and understand this great God I have, for this lord does not actually borrow you money, he gives. His blessings is free, his love is free, his grace is free, his mercy is free, most imptly, this relationship with the almighty God is FREE. It’s totally free of charge. But, there’s only one condition!.. .and that is to make an impt decision whether or not to accept this gift of God. The gift is already there, it has been extended to you. The blood of Jesus has been shed for you to receive a new life, would you want to take that step of seedling faith to receive this wonderful and perfect gift from the lord? God’s free gift is always there, and he really wants you to take hold of this free gift, this free gift also has lots of other benefits, vouchers, discounts and special offers. It has totally no strings attached, and if you’re willing to just take God’s hand and accept this free gift, your life would be visibly and wonderfully transformed.

‘I am bringing my righteousness near, it is not far away; and my salvation will not be delayed.’

Yes!..salvation is here today..right here.. .will you accept the lord’s invitation today to accept this wonderful free gift?

2006-10-14T07:28:00.000-07:00

2dae was so so so tiring. . ..i went out at 7am.. .and came bk home at 8.45pm. . .

kkaes..i shall show you 2dae's schedule

a glimpse of charis's (izzit charis'..charises' or what..weird. .) hectic
busy
schedule

7.00am

my sis, crystal woke me up early in the morning, saying that we've gotta visit my mom that dae...then i coldn't be bothered to wake up..cuz i was extremely tired.. and i couldnt' sleep until 1am the last nite. . .and after much deperate tugs and pushes, i still could not wake up..and my sis almost gave up on me. . .and she switched on my cd-player..and played 听妈妈的话。。i woke up instantly. .haha..

2. 9.00am

i went to TCT for AunN* dance rehearshal. . .and then my father actually send me to TCT. . .and guess wad. .

when i got off the van. . i actually injured my leg. .while getting out of the van. . and it was really horribly painful . .and extremely embarrassing.. .seeing that i was clutching my poor leg in the middle of the road. . plain HORRIBLE. . .luckily..it was in early in the morning.. .where no one was looking

3. 10.00am-12.00pm

chrislyn..me.. and evelyn tried to cheorograph the 1st part of the dance...yeahs.yeahs..we are dancing joyi n the holy ghost. .and IT"S retro..yeps it IS..i can't believe i can't dance retro. . .so depressing,. .i can't do the basic steps of doing the zigzag-bending-your-knees pose. . .felt like a failure. . .like it looks plain un-dancerish. . . hais. . .after 3 years of practising. . i just seem to get it .

4. 12.30pm

after few months of boycotting macs.. i'm finally eating it 2dae. . .I"M only eating macs.. today..bcuz there wans't much of a choice. ..and everyone was eating there. . .so well. . .i can't posibly run over to hawker centre and buy porridge instead. . yup..

BUT after eating MACs.. i felt so unhealthy and fatt. . . it contains so much carbo and calories. . .and probably playing tennis a few daes will not to burn off all the fats,.. ..LOL

5. 1pm-2pm

me..chrislyn..kelly..weishan slept thruout the whole bus ride on our way to childrens club. . we look like a group of pigs. .sleeping together in a pigsty. . .haha.. and kelly was clever enough to use the RACHIE marshsmallow pillow that we were supposed to giv rach later on. . .haah

6. 2.30 pm. . .we met up with ah QIU(ah choo) and yanne at the yishun bus interchange. . .and i was so surprised to see yanne in a skirt. . hi-5 yanne. . .you look so CUTE in a skirt. . .so kawaii. .and feminine..lady-like..may i add that your dear GREEN Fields..would have love to see you in a skirt.. .haah

7. 2.30-5.00pm

tuition the kids math and english. . .felt that several of them were becoming rather restless and bored. . .so after 4pm..decided to let them off. .and the boys started to become super violent.. throwing boxes all over the mE.. .i must applaud the girls. . they were suepr--well-behaved..palying master-mind and UNO..not bad .>

and i saw this two gals quarelling that vividly remind me of yanner and panda. haha..exact replication of panda and yanne.. .they are the panda-yanne JUNIOR..

8. 7.30 -9pm. .

went to east coast. .to celebrate rach's bd.. ..got her this glittery. .box and the fuffy bloaty marshmallow pillow.. .

haha..

and i rollerbladed..fianlly ..for the 1st tym in 7mothns. .i bladed..i was so HAPPIE..lyke i've finalyl found freedom . .so sad my old blades are spoilt..and i'm just totally broke to buy a new pair. . shall wait for x-mas. . .haha

ANW,,rach..\HAP:PIE burfdae. .

OH..and i broke my beloved green sandals on my way back home..and it super duepr embarrasing..czu i gotta walk barefooted..looking fer a cab. . diao..and den went to marine parade to buy a new pair of sandals. . .

hmm..actually my new pair of sandals quite nice LA.. .it's orange.. heard that yanne,,it's orange!

haha

signing off//

currypoker__11.07pm_currypoker's hse..

2006-10-13T06:53:00.000-07:00

devotion of the day

13th OCT

Isaiah 45

“I am the lord, and there is no other; apart from me, there is no God.” God reaffirms himself, saying that there are no other Gods other God himself. We are not allowed to worship and pray to other Gods. “Ignorant are those who carry about idols of wood, who pray to gods that cannot save.” Those who only seek their gods when they face problems and troubles in life, they would only turn to their one and only Lord when they need help. Who is God to them.? They only trust him when they need help, when they are leading perfect happy lives, they turn away from God, thinking that they no longer need the lord anymore.

“I summon you by name and bestow on you a title of honor, though you have not acknowledged me” “I will strengthen you though you have not acknowledged me” God is a loving and graciousGod, even though at times, we turn away from him, we ignore him, we forget his presence, his existence. He still bless us tremendously, giving us new opportunities and chances to excel and do well in life. His loving kindness is good to all, and I’ve often very grateful that God has given me so many things in life, but sometimes it seems that I keep asking for more. I ‘ve become more and more greedy for God’s blessings and grace. Sometimes, I feel that at times I’ve misused God’s grace. And that I take this special grace for granted. I kept sinning against God, knowing that he will cleanse my sins over and over again with the blood of Jesus. But this blood seems to be soaked in guilt and dirt, as I’ve often had the wrong attitude and mindset when I’ve always come in front of the altar to receive his grace. We are sinners saved by God’s wonderful grace, so that we can be called sons and daughters of the living God. therefore, God’s grace is pure, holy and sacred, we cannot misuse this special God’s grace and love for us.

“This is what the lord says—the holy one of Israel and its maker:
Concerning things to come, do you question me about my children, or give me orders about the work of my hands”

Sometimes, I will question God about the things that happen in my life…like why sometimes, when we put in lots of effort in doing sumthing,.. we just don’t’ seem to get it. . .perhaps it’s the not the right time. . .but when will it be the right time. . .and sometimes waiting for that thing to happen takes a LONG time.. and it really needs lots of perseverance and patience and determination to get it going. . .

Other times, I would ask God about why the sudden increase of natural disasters –such as tsunami..earthquakes.. volcanoes eruption… .typhoons. . .and so forth. . .obviously I know the reason. . .but it just seems so cruel and sad .. . .that many loved ones and friends are just slipping away from us. . ..

BUT..i know that victory lies in the lord. . .and as time goes by. . .the truth will be made known to all . . .

And then the end will COME.

(oH man.this sounds so dramatic. .yeps..but it is)

2006-10-13T00:19:00.000-07:00

yeA..yea... i finally started a blog liaos..after much procrastination.. ..i finally have a blog.. .*whoots*..*screams*.. ..kkaes...so drama.///diao

yeps..actually i wanted to find a curry blogskin...you know those jap curry blogskins.?...BUT i couldn't find.. ..sad..sad..so in the end i saw this really nice goong blogskin..and took it instead. .hais.. betta nthing la.. .NVM..i shall ask sophy the IT pro to help me make a poke-the-curry-with-a-silver-needle blogskin. . .yeps.. since you neo thats what they always do in da chang jin. . .as what san mao has suggested.

yeps.. yeps.. anw..this blogskin is always quite nice la.. i mean its lovely.. . i was scanning all the blogskins.. and i CHOSE this because LEE YUL looks verii cute here. . .

one of his cutest poses. . .

and even Min Hyo-rin didn't look as evil than b4... ..

and TO think that i thought that she could dance. . .

in the start of the show.. i actually tot she could dance ballet. . .turned out that she couldn't .. i mean she looked really like a dancer.. .with those curvy--long legs.. and those swishy silky hair. . .(not bad xia..can be the spokesperson for skII).. ..BUT she ended up using a ti(4) shen(1) for the episode yesterdae.. where she had to dance for the comp in england..or paris.. ..or smthing lyke that..can't bother to rmbr the place..

andt they had to film frm a far distance.. . ..cuz they were using a tio(4) shen(1).. and they only filmed the legs of the dancer.. . .and it was really really verii fake. . .the dancing scene was so not i what had expected. . .

and.. .of course.. i was disappointed..extremely.. .. i THOUGHT she could dance. . .and she couldn't .. ..

but at least there was Lee Shin and Shin Chae-gyung that i could look forward to.. ..

she was so cute.*gushes*. esp the part when she fell asleep and spoke in her dreams. . .and the part when she grabbed SHIn and mumbled sumthing.. .cute.. so cute.

yeps.. i guess i have to go off liaos.. .

GOT to tuition my sis fer her exams. . .:)

signing off///

currypoker_13oct06_15.27__school's relatively deserted comp lab after hY and gang has left.

*_poKiNG tHe cUrrY_*